I leaned on the wall and watched Nick as he paced back and forth. He hadn't said a word to me nor did he look at me. "How long has it been?" He finally glanced my way.
"Two minutes." I put my hands on my knees and slid down the wall to sit. "I'm not pregnant."
"How do you know?!" He barked back at me and I got aggravated.
"I'm going to let you two talk I will be downstairs." Josh gave me a look and walked down the stairs.
"How the fuck do you think I know Nick? I have been pregnant before remember? I think I know how I'm suppose to feel." He crossed his arms and walked around a little more.
"I'm sorry." He sat down next to me. "It's just all these thoughts are running through my head like what's going to happen to you, what your family is going to think of me, what my family is going to think of me. I don't know it just scares me I'm sorry." I looked at him and leaned my head on him.
"I'm just worried about what's going to happen to us." He scooted away a little bit and gave me a shocked look.
"Kate do you think I will leave you if it's positive?" Before I could answer Josh walked upstairs.
"It's been 5 minutes." He was looking at his watch. I sighed and stood up and walked to the bathroom. I put my hands up when they followed behind me.
"Can I look at it first? Alone." They looked at each other. Nick spoke first.
"Yeah sure, we will just sit out here." They both sat down. I walked into the bathroom and stared at the test from a distance before I walked towards it. I looked at it for about a minute, turned around and sat down on the floor.
"Kate can we come in?" Nick came to the door. I took a deep breath and nodded it. Nick didn't even look at the test, he looked at me and knew. He wrapped me in his arms. Josh walked over and threw the test in the trash.
"No more scares miss lady! Always use a condom!" Josh rubbed my head and walk out.
"Are you relieved?" I looked up at Nick and smiled.
"A little but you know I would have taken care of you if you were pregnant." I kissed him.
"Yeah I know, oh and one more thing....I told you so." He smiled and walked into my room, I followed him. He sat on my bed and put his shoes on.
"Where you going?" I sat down next to him.
"You should get changed. I want to take you somewhere."
"Where??" He smiled and walked to my closet.
"It's a surprise, but you should wear something warm." I walked behind him and wrapped my arms around his waist.
"Okay but where are we going?" He turn around and shut the door and threw me against the wall.
"Surprise Kate!" He kissed my neck.
"Okay okay." I pushed his hair back and changed into some jeans and hoodie. I looked at him for approval. "Warm enough?"
"No put something on under that." He grabbed a smaller sweat shit out of my drawer and threw it towards me. "I will be downstairs waiting." I quickly threw on the sweat shirt and put some make up on. I walked into the living room to see all the boys watching TV.
"Ready?" Nick stood up and put his coat on.
"Yeah, do they know were your taking me?" I pointed to Josh and Riley.
"Yup!" Riley turned around. "And I hate you I'm so jealous!"
"What is going on!!??" I screamed and they all laughed. Nick grabbed my hand and walked me to the car. He started the car and headed down the street.
"Shit Nick how long are we going to me out?" I looked at my watch.
"I don't no why?"
"The broncos play today at 7. Me and Riley were going to watch the game." He laughed. "What?"
"Nothing." He had a cute grin.
"Wait a second." I turned by body towards him. "They play the Redskins today." He kept smiling "Nick is that where you're taking me??!!"
"Oh do they?"
"Don't lie you know!! Is that where we are going??!!" He pulled me into his chest.
"I can't get anything past you can I?" I screamed from excitement.
"Oh my god Nick! I can't believe you!! What even made you think of this?!" I grabbed his face and kissed him.
"Careful, driving here." He smiled. "Remember when we first met you told me that you were more of a football fan then a hockey fan. Well sometimes I listen to you when you talk."
"Thank you Nick! You are amazing."
"Tell me something I don't know." He pulled into a parking spot right near the stadium, apparently he told them that he was coming to the game and they reserved a spot for him. We walked to our seats. They were front row right on the 50 yard line.
"Good seats?" He looked at me.
"Nick I'm speechless." We sat down and waited for the game to start. I was crazy screaming and shouting.
"I'm really surprised you can scream that loud." Nick looked at me and smiled.
"When it comes to football I scream so loud I lose my voice."
"So that's all I need to do! Bring a football into the bedroom. Hmmmm." I smacked him playfully and he wrapped his arm around my shoulders.
"You are such a perv!"
"You like it."
"Maybe." I kissed him and got up to get a drink.
The game was amazing. I felt like I was on the field. The broncos lost but I was just so happy to go and of course Nick rubbed it in my face. We got home and it was about 11 and Riley was out and Josh was asleep.
"Want to go back to my place?" Nick stood at the door.
"Yeah." I followed him out the door and hopped back into the car. He leaned over and kissed me for what seemed like 5 minutes.
"What are you doing?" I looked at him and smiled.
"What does it look like I'm doing." I unbuckled my seat belt and climbed on top of him I put the seat back and kissed him.
Monday, December 29, 2008
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Chapter 26
"How did it go?" Nick walked with me as I walked out of the court room.
"The Justice system is fucked." I walked at a fast pace and didn't stop.
"What happened?" He grabbed my hand and pulled me towards him.
"They wouldn't give me a restraining order for either of them." I stared at the floor and didn't look up at Nick.
"Are you fucking serious?! What the hell?"
"Well they explained to me that Brian has never abused me and there was no proof that Justin was outside of my house, so that equals no retraining orders."
"Kate."
"Can we just go I feel like shit." I had the look of frustration on my face.
"Yeah." He grabbed my bag and started to walk me to the door.
"Ms. Patrick." I turned around and saw my attorney standing behind me. I walked over to him and shook his hand.
"Thank you for all that you did." He pulled a card out of his pocket.
"If anything happens, If you see them again this is my card, do not hesitate to call me." I took the card and handed it to Nick to put in my bag.
"Thank you." I shook his hand one more time and so did Nick. We went to the car and I called Riley.
"Hey Kiddo how was it?"
"Horrible, they wouldn't give me the retraining orders."
"What, that's not fucking right! I'm coming up th..."
"Hold on Riley." I put the phone down and turned to Nick. "Nick please pull over."
"What? What's wrong."
"Please just pull over." He pulled over on the side of the Highway. I got out and puked up my whole breakfast. Nick Jumped out of the car.
"Jesus, are you okay?" He rubbed my back, I just stayed hunched over. "Kate are you sick?"
"I'm just nervous about this whole situation. I always tend to puke when I get really scared." I wiped my mouth with my sleeve and stood up.
"Can I please do something for you to make you feel better? I'm not going to let anyone hurt you." I stood still as he pulled me into his body. I rested my head on his chest.
"I know, everyone is saying that, I believe that Brian would never hurt me but Justin is a whole different story." I sat in the passengers seat feeling so disgusted. "I just wish I could go a year without having to worry about something." Nick looked at me and put his hand on my knees.
"I want you to feel safe with me." He rubbed the top of my back and neck.
"I really do with you, Riley and Josh, but I will never feel safe with Justin around." I leaned my head on the car window and we drove in silence back home.
"How you feeling?" Nick help me out of the car and walked me up to the porch.
"Fine I'm just nauseous." Riley opened the door
"Nicklas Backstrom! I must say I'm a fan. It's nice to meet you." Riley extended his hand to Nick.
"It's nice to meet you too, I'm kind of scared your going to kick my ass." Riley smiled and welcomed Nick inside.
"Nah man, any guy that can make my sister this happy is fine with me, It's Johnny you will have to look out for." Nick had a scared look on his face and I smacked Riley on the shoulder.
"Riley!" I looked at Nick. "That's not true he will love you, my whole family will! Cut it out Riley." Josh walked downstairs.
"Hey guys what's up. I ordered some pizza It's in the kitchen if you want some." Riley ran into the kitchen like he hadn't eaten in 2 weeks.
"You want me to get you a piece?" Nick sat my bag in front of the stairs.
"No my stomach is all messed up right now I better not eat."
"Okay." Nick kissed me on the head. "You should go upstairs and get some sleep you hardly slept last night."
Yeah I will do that." Nick walked into the kitchen but Josh didn't move. I started walking up the stairs. "Aren't you hungry?" I turned and looked at Josh.
"Um yeah but can I come upstairs with you for a second?"
"Sure?? but why." He walked in front of me.
"Just follow me for a sec." I followed him into the bathroom. He reached under the sink and pulled out a bag. "Are you still felling sick?"
"Yeah, you know that. I have been feeling sick for the past two days." He opened the bag and pulled out a box, I gasped.
"Josh you're funny." I walked into my room.
"Just take it." He threw the pregnancy test on my bed.
"No! are you joking. I'm not pregnant."
"Kat you have been getting sick about three or four times in the morning. Doesn't that seem weird to you?" He leaned on the door frame.
"No it doesn't. I'm just in a weird place right now. It makes me nauseous." He walked over and opened the box.
"Well if you have nothing to worry about then why not take it just for fun?"
"Why would I find that fun?" I pushed the box over and pulled the covers over my head.
"Just take it, please!" I threw the covers off of me, grabbed the test and walked into the bathroom.
"When this is negative I'm going to laugh at you, very hard." I opened the door and sat the test on the sink. "How long does this take?" Josh walked in and looked at it.
"It takes 5 to 10 minutes." He crossed his arms. "What would happen if it was positive?" He looked at me.
"It's not going to be positive." I sat on the bathtub ledge.
"But what if?" Right as Josh said that Nick walked upstairs and I threw the test on the ground hoping he didn't see it.
"What was that? Why are you both in the bathroom?" Josh spoke first. I covered my eyes because I knew how bad he was a lying.
"I had a weird mole! Kat was seeing what it was!" He was pretty much shouting it. All I could do was shake my head. Nick walked in a little closer and saw the test on the ground.
"What is that?" He stared at it.
"Nick it's..."
"Is that a pregnancy test?"
"The Justice system is fucked." I walked at a fast pace and didn't stop.
"What happened?" He grabbed my hand and pulled me towards him.
"They wouldn't give me a restraining order for either of them." I stared at the floor and didn't look up at Nick.
"Are you fucking serious?! What the hell?"
"Well they explained to me that Brian has never abused me and there was no proof that Justin was outside of my house, so that equals no retraining orders."
"Kate."
"Can we just go I feel like shit." I had the look of frustration on my face.
"Yeah." He grabbed my bag and started to walk me to the door.
"Ms. Patrick." I turned around and saw my attorney standing behind me. I walked over to him and shook his hand.
"Thank you for all that you did." He pulled a card out of his pocket.
"If anything happens, If you see them again this is my card, do not hesitate to call me." I took the card and handed it to Nick to put in my bag.
"Thank you." I shook his hand one more time and so did Nick. We went to the car and I called Riley.
"Hey Kiddo how was it?"
"Horrible, they wouldn't give me the retraining orders."
"What, that's not fucking right! I'm coming up th..."
"Hold on Riley." I put the phone down and turned to Nick. "Nick please pull over."
"What? What's wrong."
"Please just pull over." He pulled over on the side of the Highway. I got out and puked up my whole breakfast. Nick Jumped out of the car.
"Jesus, are you okay?" He rubbed my back, I just stayed hunched over. "Kate are you sick?"
"I'm just nervous about this whole situation. I always tend to puke when I get really scared." I wiped my mouth with my sleeve and stood up.
"Can I please do something for you to make you feel better? I'm not going to let anyone hurt you." I stood still as he pulled me into his body. I rested my head on his chest.
"I know, everyone is saying that, I believe that Brian would never hurt me but Justin is a whole different story." I sat in the passengers seat feeling so disgusted. "I just wish I could go a year without having to worry about something." Nick looked at me and put his hand on my knees.
"I want you to feel safe with me." He rubbed the top of my back and neck.
"I really do with you, Riley and Josh, but I will never feel safe with Justin around." I leaned my head on the car window and we drove in silence back home.
"How you feeling?" Nick help me out of the car and walked me up to the porch.
"Fine I'm just nauseous." Riley opened the door
"Nicklas Backstrom! I must say I'm a fan. It's nice to meet you." Riley extended his hand to Nick.
"It's nice to meet you too, I'm kind of scared your going to kick my ass." Riley smiled and welcomed Nick inside.
"Nah man, any guy that can make my sister this happy is fine with me, It's Johnny you will have to look out for." Nick had a scared look on his face and I smacked Riley on the shoulder.
"Riley!" I looked at Nick. "That's not true he will love you, my whole family will! Cut it out Riley." Josh walked downstairs.
"Hey guys what's up. I ordered some pizza It's in the kitchen if you want some." Riley ran into the kitchen like he hadn't eaten in 2 weeks.
"You want me to get you a piece?" Nick sat my bag in front of the stairs.
"No my stomach is all messed up right now I better not eat."
"Okay." Nick kissed me on the head. "You should go upstairs and get some sleep you hardly slept last night."
Yeah I will do that." Nick walked into the kitchen but Josh didn't move. I started walking up the stairs. "Aren't you hungry?" I turned and looked at Josh.
"Um yeah but can I come upstairs with you for a second?"
"Sure?? but why." He walked in front of me.
"Just follow me for a sec." I followed him into the bathroom. He reached under the sink and pulled out a bag. "Are you still felling sick?"
"Yeah, you know that. I have been feeling sick for the past two days." He opened the bag and pulled out a box, I gasped.
"Josh you're funny." I walked into my room.
"Just take it." He threw the pregnancy test on my bed.
"No! are you joking. I'm not pregnant."
"Kat you have been getting sick about three or four times in the morning. Doesn't that seem weird to you?" He leaned on the door frame.
"No it doesn't. I'm just in a weird place right now. It makes me nauseous." He walked over and opened the box.
"Well if you have nothing to worry about then why not take it just for fun?"
"Why would I find that fun?" I pushed the box over and pulled the covers over my head.
"Just take it, please!" I threw the covers off of me, grabbed the test and walked into the bathroom.
"When this is negative I'm going to laugh at you, very hard." I opened the door and sat the test on the sink. "How long does this take?" Josh walked in and looked at it.
"It takes 5 to 10 minutes." He crossed his arms. "What would happen if it was positive?" He looked at me.
"It's not going to be positive." I sat on the bathtub ledge.
"But what if?" Right as Josh said that Nick walked upstairs and I threw the test on the ground hoping he didn't see it.
"What was that? Why are you both in the bathroom?" Josh spoke first. I covered my eyes because I knew how bad he was a lying.
"I had a weird mole! Kat was seeing what it was!" He was pretty much shouting it. All I could do was shake my head. Nick walked in a little closer and saw the test on the ground.
"What is that?" He stared at it.
"Nick it's..."
"Is that a pregnancy test?"
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Chapter 25
"You almost finished?" Josh walked over to my desk.
"Yeah I just have to call a few more people and your club should be packed Friday." He sat down.
"Kat you have been working like crazy lately, what's wrong?" I started to dial a phone number but Josh hung my phone up.
"Nothing is wrong, aren't I allowed to work?" I turned my chair to look at him.
"Yeah you are, that's why your here, but your in this office all the time now and you hardly go out." I rolled my eyes.
"And your point is?"
"My point is call him." I tuned back around a stared at my desk.
"I haven't talked to him in a week, he doesn't care so why should I?" Josh got up and walked out into the hallway, I sighed and went back to work. About a minute later he walked back in with Orchids, my favorite flower and they were beautiful.
"Does this look like he doesn't care."
"Where did those come from?" I walked over to take a look at them.
"He sent them today, he has been calling the office everyday, he says you won't talk to him." He sat the flowers on my desk. "What are you doing Kat? Are you afraid to be happy?"
"No, I just don't want to settle. I made a huge mistake with Brian and I don't want to go through that again."
"Nick is nothing like Brian, you said it yourself."
"I know what I said, but you weren't the one on the phone with him a week ago, I was and he sounded so much like Brain." I picked up the note off of the flowers. "Plus he broke up with me."
"Kat I got some news for you, guys are far from perfect we make mistakes and I think he really regrets what he said, just talk to him." I looked at the note. "What's it say?" Josh leaned over.
"Please call me." I rolled my eyes and put the note down. "Maybe when he learns to trust me, I will call him."
"Alright but I think you should tell him yourself." I looked up and Nick was standing in the doorway. "I'm gonna head out I will tell Riley you will be late so he won't worry, see ya kid." As Josh walked out he patted Nick on the shoulder.
"Hey." He walked over, his face was very down.
"Hey." I didn't look up.
"Why won't you talk to me?" He sat down and rested is elbows on his knees with his hands in front of him.
"I don't know."
"You do know." He scooted the chair over close to me "Talk to me please."
"I think you right, this isn't working, I'm to fragile right now for a relationship like this." I put my leg up on the chair and rested my head on my knee.
"I'm sorry for what I said to you, it wasn't right." We sat in silence for a couple minutes. Both of us were just staring at the floor. "Do you still love me?" Nick looked up at me and I didn't move.
"I don't know."
"What do you know?" He kept his stare intensely on me.
"I know that I did love you, but instead of letting me finish what I was trying to say you blew up, just like Brian used to do." He sighed
"What can I do to get things back to where they were?"
"Trust me Nick!! That's all I have ever asked you to do. Sometimes I wish we could just start over because this has turned into a big mess!" Nick stood up and walked out. I was baffled that he walked out on me. I stood up and grabbed my purse.
"Excuse me?" Nick walked back in I was very confused.
"What are you doing?" I tried to pass him but he stopped me.
"Hi my name is Nick and I have seemed to lost my cat somewhere around here, can you help me find him?"
"Nick stop."
"You think this is funny, I have had this cat for 15 years I even hand feed him. Please help me miss."
"Seriously Nick!" I tried my best to hold back my smile.
"Fine do what to wish but If my cat dies, you will have to live with yourself knowing you did nothing!" He got down on his knees and grabbed me legs. "Please!!! Please help me find Mr. Kitty, he is my life!" He pulled me so hard I fell down.
"Nick! you are an idiot." I tried so hard but I started to smile.
"Are you smiling?! This is not a laughing matter, wipe that smirk off your face!"
"Sttoopp." I stared to laugh.
"Okay we can find my cat later but you are smoking hot can I take you out on a date?" We were sitting on the floor and I was holding myself up with my elbows. Nick pulled me in and kissed me. "I'm sorry." I rested my head on his neck.
"Trust me." I looked up at him.
"I promise." He pushed my hair back and kissed me again.
"No more of this shit that I still love Brian." I leaned back and gave him a look.
"No more."
"Good now help me up you dick!" He got up and walked out of my office.
"Nick!!!!!! I can't get up." I rolled over on my stomach and laid there.
"You are such a baby! I swear I spoil you." He grabbed my feet and started to drag me.
"Ouch, ouch, OUCH!! Rug burn!!!!!!!! owie!!"
"Owie? Hey 10 year old." I turned over and grabbed his legs to make him fall.
"Look at this rug burn!" I pulled up my jeans to show him.
"That looks rough."
"Kiss it!." I put my leg in his face and he pushed it away.
"Gross no way."
"Kiss it! make it feel better." I sat up and wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him, he stood up and pulled me up. "I'm going to show Riley this rug burn and he is going to give you a beat down." I linked my arm into his, he just stared at me.
"What?" I smiled at him.
"Nothing, I just missed you." He kissed my head and we walked to his car.
"Yeah I just have to call a few more people and your club should be packed Friday." He sat down.
"Kat you have been working like crazy lately, what's wrong?" I started to dial a phone number but Josh hung my phone up.
"Nothing is wrong, aren't I allowed to work?" I turned my chair to look at him.
"Yeah you are, that's why your here, but your in this office all the time now and you hardly go out." I rolled my eyes.
"And your point is?"
"My point is call him." I tuned back around a stared at my desk.
"I haven't talked to him in a week, he doesn't care so why should I?" Josh got up and walked out into the hallway, I sighed and went back to work. About a minute later he walked back in with Orchids, my favorite flower and they were beautiful.
"Does this look like he doesn't care."
"Where did those come from?" I walked over to take a look at them.
"He sent them today, he has been calling the office everyday, he says you won't talk to him." He sat the flowers on my desk. "What are you doing Kat? Are you afraid to be happy?"
"No, I just don't want to settle. I made a huge mistake with Brian and I don't want to go through that again."
"Nick is nothing like Brian, you said it yourself."
"I know what I said, but you weren't the one on the phone with him a week ago, I was and he sounded so much like Brain." I picked up the note off of the flowers. "Plus he broke up with me."
"Kat I got some news for you, guys are far from perfect we make mistakes and I think he really regrets what he said, just talk to him." I looked at the note. "What's it say?" Josh leaned over.
"Please call me." I rolled my eyes and put the note down. "Maybe when he learns to trust me, I will call him."
"Alright but I think you should tell him yourself." I looked up and Nick was standing in the doorway. "I'm gonna head out I will tell Riley you will be late so he won't worry, see ya kid." As Josh walked out he patted Nick on the shoulder.
"Hey." He walked over, his face was very down.
"Hey." I didn't look up.
"Why won't you talk to me?" He sat down and rested is elbows on his knees with his hands in front of him.
"I don't know."
"You do know." He scooted the chair over close to me "Talk to me please."
"I think you right, this isn't working, I'm to fragile right now for a relationship like this." I put my leg up on the chair and rested my head on my knee.
"I'm sorry for what I said to you, it wasn't right." We sat in silence for a couple minutes. Both of us were just staring at the floor. "Do you still love me?" Nick looked up at me and I didn't move.
"I don't know."
"What do you know?" He kept his stare intensely on me.
"I know that I did love you, but instead of letting me finish what I was trying to say you blew up, just like Brian used to do." He sighed
"What can I do to get things back to where they were?"
"Trust me Nick!! That's all I have ever asked you to do. Sometimes I wish we could just start over because this has turned into a big mess!" Nick stood up and walked out. I was baffled that he walked out on me. I stood up and grabbed my purse.
"Excuse me?" Nick walked back in I was very confused.
"What are you doing?" I tried to pass him but he stopped me.
"Hi my name is Nick and I have seemed to lost my cat somewhere around here, can you help me find him?"
"Nick stop."
"You think this is funny, I have had this cat for 15 years I even hand feed him. Please help me miss."
"Seriously Nick!" I tried my best to hold back my smile.
"Fine do what to wish but If my cat dies, you will have to live with yourself knowing you did nothing!" He got down on his knees and grabbed me legs. "Please!!! Please help me find Mr. Kitty, he is my life!" He pulled me so hard I fell down.
"Nick! you are an idiot." I tried so hard but I started to smile.
"Are you smiling?! This is not a laughing matter, wipe that smirk off your face!"
"Sttoopp." I stared to laugh.
"Okay we can find my cat later but you are smoking hot can I take you out on a date?" We were sitting on the floor and I was holding myself up with my elbows. Nick pulled me in and kissed me. "I'm sorry." I rested my head on his neck.
"Trust me." I looked up at him.
"I promise." He pushed my hair back and kissed me again.
"No more of this shit that I still love Brian." I leaned back and gave him a look.
"No more."
"Good now help me up you dick!" He got up and walked out of my office.
"Nick!!!!!! I can't get up." I rolled over on my stomach and laid there.
"You are such a baby! I swear I spoil you." He grabbed my feet and started to drag me.
"Ouch, ouch, OUCH!! Rug burn!!!!!!!! owie!!"
"Owie? Hey 10 year old." I turned over and grabbed his legs to make him fall.
"Look at this rug burn!" I pulled up my jeans to show him.
"That looks rough."
"Kiss it!." I put my leg in his face and he pushed it away.
"Gross no way."
"Kiss it! make it feel better." I sat up and wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him, he stood up and pulled me up. "I'm going to show Riley this rug burn and he is going to give you a beat down." I linked my arm into his, he just stared at me.
"What?" I smiled at him.
"Nothing, I just missed you." He kissed my head and we walked to his car.
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Chapter 24
"Good morning." Riley met me in the hall way as I dragged myself to the bathroom.
"Morning" I turned the water on for the shower and leaned against the door frame.
"Pick you head up." Riley pushed my chin up.
"If I see him again I don't know what I will do. He has no right being out of prison, after what he did to me."
"Don't let this bring you down, you have come so far."
"It's not right, I was a kid, a fucking kid and he stole that and I can NEVER get my teen years back he practically took my life and now he is back around, how can I trust that a restraining order will stop both of them, how can I trust the fucking justice system after they gave him a year in jail."
"I don't Know what to say to you."
"Yeah no one does, nobody has been able to fucking answer me." I shut the door and got in the shower. I was frustrated, scared and tired. I took it out on Riley and I felt bad. I did not know how to handle this. Brian was one thing but both of them?! I got out and did my hair. I walked downstairs and saw Riley sitting at the kitchen table with his head down. I sat next to him.
"I'm sorry, it's not your fault, I'm just finally happy for once in a long time and my past comes back to bite me in the ass." He looked up at me, his eyes were red. "Riley don't." I felt my eyes watering up.
"You deserve so much more than this, your too young and sometimes I feel like it's my fault, I should have been there." Every time me and Riley talked about this he felt like Justin raping me was his fault. He was suppose to go to the party with me but his girlfriend at the time didn't want to go, so I went to Brian's birthday party alone. He blames himself.
"Riley as much as you think it's your fault it's not. What would you have followed me upstairs that night?"
"Yeah I would have, I always thought Justin was bad news, he always looked at you, I wouldn't have let him take you anywhere." I wiped my tears with my sleeve.
"Riley, I will never blame you." I got up and kissed his cheek, he got up and hugged me, we were both crying. I have never felt so close to him. "Please don't ever think it's your fault." He laughed and wiped his eyes.
"Want some breakfast?" I smiled
"Yeah sure. Egg sandwich?! Just like mom makes. you know how I like it."
"How can I forget, especially since you put ketchup on it."
"Okay, good. I will be back I'm going to make a phone call."
"Alright."
I walked upstairs and sat on my bed. I promised everyone I wouldn't talk to Brian but I wanted to Know if he was talking to his brother. If he wasn't then maybe it wasn't Justin outside.
"Hello?" He answered.
"Brian?" It sounded like him, but a little different.
"Hey sweetheart it is so nice to talk to you, I haven't talked to you in a while. Still as sexy as you were when you were 14?" My heart dropped. I couldn't speak. "Aw you not going to talk to me?"
"You are a sick human being, stay away from me and my family." Justin started to say something but I hung up the phone before I could hear what he said. I just laid in my bed looking up at the ceiling wondering how I was going to explain all this to Nick.
"Hey Babe." Nick sounded cheerful
"Hi." I wasn't so cheerful.
"What's wrong."
"Remember when I told you about Brian's brother Justin?"
"Yeah."
"Well my brother Riley thinks he saw him outside of Josh's house."
"Are you serious? What are you going to do?"
"I don't Know, I didn't know if it was him or not so I called Brian and...." He cut me off.
"You called Brian?!" Nick sounded upset. "What the fuck is wrong with you?!"
"Nick!" When he said that he sounded just like Brian.
"I'm sorry Kate but seriously, he is putting you through hell and you call him! That does not sound so smart to me, leave it alone!"
"If you were in my shoes you would do the same thing!" I was getting very pissed off.
"How do you know that! I can't believe you called him. That has got to be the stupidest thing you have done, you need to stop talking to him, your still in love with him aren't you?!." I don't think I have ever been this mad at him, he didn't understand where I was coming from.
"Why don't you trust me! you never have and I can't believe after everything I told you you're getting pissed off about this. You have no fucking clue what I'm going through don't judge me! I called Brian to see if he was talking to his brother and Justin answered. That's all I called for. I'm petrified right now and all you have to fucking say to me is that I still love Brian! I think something is wrong with you!" I was going to hang up but I wanted to hear what he had to say.
"I don't think this is working, this just isn't right." I was shocked, but to mad at him to care.
"Fine I don't even care because your heartless."
"Fine." I threw my phone at my dresser picked it up and put the battery back inside and went down stairs. I was furious.
"What was all that yelling about?" Riley sat the sandwich in front of me. I pushed it away.
"I'm not hungry." He pushed it back towards me
"You haven't eaten, and who did you just call, why are you so pissed off?"
"I called Brian, and then Nick." Riley rolled his eyes, I got up to go upstairs because I didn't want to deal with him getting mad at me too.
"Sit down, Now why did you call Brian."
"Do you really want to know why or is it just to make me sit down." I was still standing
"Tell me." He sat down and waited for me.
"Well." I took a bite out of my sandwich. "I wanted to know if he was talking to Justin, because if he wasn't then maybe it wasn't Justin outside."
"Okay, I understand that." I was happy that someone understood why I called him.
"Then I called Nick to tell him and he flipped out, turned into a total dick, I yelled back at him and then he broke up with me." Nick breaking up with me just hit me when I told Riley.
"Maybe he is just scared too." Riley crossed his arms.
"No, because he still thinks I love Brian."
"Do you?"
"NO! why do people still think I love him!" Riley put his hand up.
"Whoa whoa whoa, I was just asking."
"Yeah, sorry." My phone started to ring.
"Who is it?" Riley leaned over to look.
"It's Nick." I stared at my phone.
"You gonna answer it?"
"Nope." I put it back in my pocket and continued to eat my breakfast.
"Morning" I turned the water on for the shower and leaned against the door frame.
"Pick you head up." Riley pushed my chin up.
"If I see him again I don't know what I will do. He has no right being out of prison, after what he did to me."
"Don't let this bring you down, you have come so far."
"It's not right, I was a kid, a fucking kid and he stole that and I can NEVER get my teen years back he practically took my life and now he is back around, how can I trust that a restraining order will stop both of them, how can I trust the fucking justice system after they gave him a year in jail."
"I don't Know what to say to you."
"Yeah no one does, nobody has been able to fucking answer me." I shut the door and got in the shower. I was frustrated, scared and tired. I took it out on Riley and I felt bad. I did not know how to handle this. Brian was one thing but both of them?! I got out and did my hair. I walked downstairs and saw Riley sitting at the kitchen table with his head down. I sat next to him.
"I'm sorry, it's not your fault, I'm just finally happy for once in a long time and my past comes back to bite me in the ass." He looked up at me, his eyes were red. "Riley don't." I felt my eyes watering up.
"You deserve so much more than this, your too young and sometimes I feel like it's my fault, I should have been there." Every time me and Riley talked about this he felt like Justin raping me was his fault. He was suppose to go to the party with me but his girlfriend at the time didn't want to go, so I went to Brian's birthday party alone. He blames himself.
"Riley as much as you think it's your fault it's not. What would you have followed me upstairs that night?"
"Yeah I would have, I always thought Justin was bad news, he always looked at you, I wouldn't have let him take you anywhere." I wiped my tears with my sleeve.
"Riley, I will never blame you." I got up and kissed his cheek, he got up and hugged me, we were both crying. I have never felt so close to him. "Please don't ever think it's your fault." He laughed and wiped his eyes.
"Want some breakfast?" I smiled
"Yeah sure. Egg sandwich?! Just like mom makes. you know how I like it."
"How can I forget, especially since you put ketchup on it."
"Okay, good. I will be back I'm going to make a phone call."
"Alright."
I walked upstairs and sat on my bed. I promised everyone I wouldn't talk to Brian but I wanted to Know if he was talking to his brother. If he wasn't then maybe it wasn't Justin outside.
"Hello?" He answered.
"Brian?" It sounded like him, but a little different.
"Hey sweetheart it is so nice to talk to you, I haven't talked to you in a while. Still as sexy as you were when you were 14?" My heart dropped. I couldn't speak. "Aw you not going to talk to me?"
"You are a sick human being, stay away from me and my family." Justin started to say something but I hung up the phone before I could hear what he said. I just laid in my bed looking up at the ceiling wondering how I was going to explain all this to Nick.
"Hey Babe." Nick sounded cheerful
"Hi." I wasn't so cheerful.
"What's wrong."
"Remember when I told you about Brian's brother Justin?"
"Yeah."
"Well my brother Riley thinks he saw him outside of Josh's house."
"Are you serious? What are you going to do?"
"I don't Know, I didn't know if it was him or not so I called Brian and...." He cut me off.
"You called Brian?!" Nick sounded upset. "What the fuck is wrong with you?!"
"Nick!" When he said that he sounded just like Brian.
"I'm sorry Kate but seriously, he is putting you through hell and you call him! That does not sound so smart to me, leave it alone!"
"If you were in my shoes you would do the same thing!" I was getting very pissed off.
"How do you know that! I can't believe you called him. That has got to be the stupidest thing you have done, you need to stop talking to him, your still in love with him aren't you?!." I don't think I have ever been this mad at him, he didn't understand where I was coming from.
"Why don't you trust me! you never have and I can't believe after everything I told you you're getting pissed off about this. You have no fucking clue what I'm going through don't judge me! I called Brian to see if he was talking to his brother and Justin answered. That's all I called for. I'm petrified right now and all you have to fucking say to me is that I still love Brian! I think something is wrong with you!" I was going to hang up but I wanted to hear what he had to say.
"I don't think this is working, this just isn't right." I was shocked, but to mad at him to care.
"Fine I don't even care because your heartless."
"Fine." I threw my phone at my dresser picked it up and put the battery back inside and went down stairs. I was furious.
"What was all that yelling about?" Riley sat the sandwich in front of me. I pushed it away.
"I'm not hungry." He pushed it back towards me
"You haven't eaten, and who did you just call, why are you so pissed off?"
"I called Brian, and then Nick." Riley rolled his eyes, I got up to go upstairs because I didn't want to deal with him getting mad at me too.
"Sit down, Now why did you call Brian."
"Do you really want to know why or is it just to make me sit down." I was still standing
"Tell me." He sat down and waited for me.
"Well." I took a bite out of my sandwich. "I wanted to know if he was talking to Justin, because if he wasn't then maybe it wasn't Justin outside."
"Okay, I understand that." I was happy that someone understood why I called him.
"Then I called Nick to tell him and he flipped out, turned into a total dick, I yelled back at him and then he broke up with me." Nick breaking up with me just hit me when I told Riley.
"Maybe he is just scared too." Riley crossed his arms.
"No, because he still thinks I love Brian."
"Do you?"
"NO! why do people still think I love him!" Riley put his hand up.
"Whoa whoa whoa, I was just asking."
"Yeah, sorry." My phone started to ring.
"Who is it?" Riley leaned over to look.
"It's Nick." I stared at my phone.
"You gonna answer it?"
"Nope." I put it back in my pocket and continued to eat my breakfast.
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Chapter 23
"Do you have to leave?" I pulled him back as he put his shirt on.
"I don't want to leave but I have to." He leaned down and grabbed my bags that I had just packed 15 minutes earlier.
"I wish I could go with you, I don't want to deal with that shit at home." I walked out and closed the door behind me.
"Ask Josh if you can stay!" He stopped and turned around.
"You know I can't ask him that, after all that has happened to his house, and Brian. I need to go home and fix this." I grabbed one of my bags from his hand.
"Yeah I know, plus it's only three days." I walked up next to him and linked my arm in his.
"Yeah only three days, so don't find a new girlfriend." I leaned my head on his arm.
"What I would nev..." I cut him off.
"I was just kidding." We walked into the elevator and some woman gasped at the sight of my nose, and I turned and looked at her. "The doc says it's suppose to get worse.
"My dear what happened." She had a shocked look on her face, Nick answered for me.
"She ran into a wall, she was really, really drunk." I pinched him, the door opened on the third floor and the woman rushed out of there like we were going to give her a disease.
"What you say that for!" He laughed.
"It was funny, did you see her face." I couldn't help but laugh. We walk outside and the same limo was waiting for me. The driver took my bags and waited for me to say goodbye to Nick.
"Please be safe, keep your eyes open, don't go anywhere alone." He grabbed my face and kissed me.
"I will be fine, you sound like Josh." I hugged him
"Don't be Naive, please for your own sake, call me when you land." I gave him one last kissed and headed for the car.
"Love you." I said blowing a kiss.
"Love you too, and be careful!" He shouted before the driver closed the door.
This flight was not all that bad, I sat next to a very nice old couple. They were very interesting, telling me about how they met when they were fourteen and going through the Vietnam war together. They kept my mind off the flight the whole time. They were so in love with each other and it was nice to see. The plane landed and I walked to the terminal, Josh was sitting on a bench on his phone, I waited form my bags. It took him about 20 minutes to come over, he hugged me.
"You okay, your nose looks like shit." I gave him another hug.
"I'm so sorry for all of this, you shouldn't be put in the middle, this isn't your problem."
"Kate last time I checked you are my family, so this is my problem, I have got a surprise." I grabbed one of my bags off the baggage claim.
"What." I put it down a looked at him. "Oh my god! Riley!" I ran over to my brother and jumped on him. I didn't let go of him for what seemed like 5 minutes.
"Hey." A tear rolled down his face.
"Riley please don't cry! I'm fine, I just miss you guys so much!" Riley was always emotional when it came to me, We were the closest only being two years apart we did everything together. Everyday after school he would walk me home and we would play baseball in this sandlot, we always came home looking like dirtballs. I knew that if he heard about this he would leave school and come see me. I didn't want him to have to do that.
"I just want to make sure your okay. I 'm going to stay with you guys for a little bit."
"Riley no, you have school and Josh is here. How are you going to justify missing school?" Josh came over with my other bag and Riley grabbed the one I had.
"Kate stop, That's why they offer online classes, I told my professors I had a family emergency and they are allowing me to take the classes online till I get back." He put his hand on top of my head and messed my hair all up, he did it all the time.
"Okay, just promise me that your coming out here because you want to, not because you think you have to." Josh chimed in.
"Kat none of us think we HAVE to make sure your safe and be here for you, we want to because we love you." Riley pushed me.
"Yeah, what he said booger so just except that I'm here and I will be for a little bit, or until this is settled." I smiled
"Fine" I took my phone out and I saw that Nick had called "Shit, I forgot to call Nick."
"Yeah about that, I need to hear all about this guy, and meet him so I can approve him, even though you don't listen to our opinions." Riley threw my bag in the back of Josh's car. I put the phone up to my ear while it was ringing.
"Give me some credit, I'm finally realizing Brian was a mistake, Oh hey Nick, sorry for not calling you right away. My brother Riley came to see me."
"Wow really, does he want to kick my ass?" I laughed
"Let me ask." I covered the mouth piece. "Riley do you want to Kick Nick's ass?"
"If he gives me a reason, I will." He pounded his fist into his hand and laughed.
"Nick don't give him a reason." I was smiling back, I missed my brothers.
"I won't, I won't say a word, Everything okay though."
"Yeah I feel really protected right now."
"You should, all these big guys around you. If I was Brian I would be shitting my pants right now." Nick always made me laugh. "So will I get to meet Riley."
"Yeah he is going to be here for awhile, apparently you need his approval to date me."
"Damn straight!" Riley yelled from the front seat and Nick heard it.
"Wow your brother is going to kick my ass."
"No he is not everything is fine, I can't wait for you guys to meet."
"Well I will be nervous no doubt about that, but I'm going to let you go, have fun with your brother be safe, and uh talk me up." My smile was so big.
"I will, bye."
"Bye."
We pulled up to Josh's house and before I could touch one of my bags they both grabbed one. Riley settled down in Josh's other guest room, his house was huge, we all went down stairs and made some sandwiches, it was 3 in the morning and we were all laughing reminiscing on our childhood. I got up for a second and walked to the door.
"Where you going." Josh shut the door.
"I left my carry on in the car, It's not like I'm the president of the United States, I will be fine." Riley walked over
"I will get it!" He said shoving the rest of his sandwich in his mouth.
"You guys don't have to do this, seriously!" I sat down and crossed my arms.
"Kat it's just to keep you safe, please just let us do this for a little bit."
"Whatever." Riley walked in and put my bag down, He had a shocked look on his face. "Why you got that look on your face?" I stood up and looked in my bag.
"I think I just saw Justin." I dropped my bag on the floor.
"Justin? as in Justin Bennett, Brian's brother, your fucking joking, Riley you are joking!" I was practically yelling.
"I don't know it looked like him and when I went outside he sped off." I walked into the living room and put my face in my hands. Riley sat next to me.
"This has got to stop, I can't handle this, I'm not strong enough." Riley didn't say anything, I didn't want him to.
"I don't want to leave but I have to." He leaned down and grabbed my bags that I had just packed 15 minutes earlier.
"I wish I could go with you, I don't want to deal with that shit at home." I walked out and closed the door behind me.
"Ask Josh if you can stay!" He stopped and turned around.
"You know I can't ask him that, after all that has happened to his house, and Brian. I need to go home and fix this." I grabbed one of my bags from his hand.
"Yeah I know, plus it's only three days." I walked up next to him and linked my arm in his.
"Yeah only three days, so don't find a new girlfriend." I leaned my head on his arm.
"What I would nev..." I cut him off.
"I was just kidding." We walked into the elevator and some woman gasped at the sight of my nose, and I turned and looked at her. "The doc says it's suppose to get worse.
"My dear what happened." She had a shocked look on her face, Nick answered for me.
"She ran into a wall, she was really, really drunk." I pinched him, the door opened on the third floor and the woman rushed out of there like we were going to give her a disease.
"What you say that for!" He laughed.
"It was funny, did you see her face." I couldn't help but laugh. We walk outside and the same limo was waiting for me. The driver took my bags and waited for me to say goodbye to Nick.
"Please be safe, keep your eyes open, don't go anywhere alone." He grabbed my face and kissed me.
"I will be fine, you sound like Josh." I hugged him
"Don't be Naive, please for your own sake, call me when you land." I gave him one last kissed and headed for the car.
"Love you." I said blowing a kiss.
"Love you too, and be careful!" He shouted before the driver closed the door.
This flight was not all that bad, I sat next to a very nice old couple. They were very interesting, telling me about how they met when they were fourteen and going through the Vietnam war together. They kept my mind off the flight the whole time. They were so in love with each other and it was nice to see. The plane landed and I walked to the terminal, Josh was sitting on a bench on his phone, I waited form my bags. It took him about 20 minutes to come over, he hugged me.
"You okay, your nose looks like shit." I gave him another hug.
"I'm so sorry for all of this, you shouldn't be put in the middle, this isn't your problem."
"Kate last time I checked you are my family, so this is my problem, I have got a surprise." I grabbed one of my bags off the baggage claim.
"What." I put it down a looked at him. "Oh my god! Riley!" I ran over to my brother and jumped on him. I didn't let go of him for what seemed like 5 minutes.
"Hey." A tear rolled down his face.
"Riley please don't cry! I'm fine, I just miss you guys so much!" Riley was always emotional when it came to me, We were the closest only being two years apart we did everything together. Everyday after school he would walk me home and we would play baseball in this sandlot, we always came home looking like dirtballs. I knew that if he heard about this he would leave school and come see me. I didn't want him to have to do that.
"I just want to make sure your okay. I 'm going to stay with you guys for a little bit."
"Riley no, you have school and Josh is here. How are you going to justify missing school?" Josh came over with my other bag and Riley grabbed the one I had.
"Kate stop, That's why they offer online classes, I told my professors I had a family emergency and they are allowing me to take the classes online till I get back." He put his hand on top of my head and messed my hair all up, he did it all the time.
"Okay, just promise me that your coming out here because you want to, not because you think you have to." Josh chimed in.
"Kat none of us think we HAVE to make sure your safe and be here for you, we want to because we love you." Riley pushed me.
"Yeah, what he said booger so just except that I'm here and I will be for a little bit, or until this is settled." I smiled
"Fine" I took my phone out and I saw that Nick had called "Shit, I forgot to call Nick."
"Yeah about that, I need to hear all about this guy, and meet him so I can approve him, even though you don't listen to our opinions." Riley threw my bag in the back of Josh's car. I put the phone up to my ear while it was ringing.
"Give me some credit, I'm finally realizing Brian was a mistake, Oh hey Nick, sorry for not calling you right away. My brother Riley came to see me."
"Wow really, does he want to kick my ass?" I laughed
"Let me ask." I covered the mouth piece. "Riley do you want to Kick Nick's ass?"
"If he gives me a reason, I will." He pounded his fist into his hand and laughed.
"Nick don't give him a reason." I was smiling back, I missed my brothers.
"I won't, I won't say a word, Everything okay though."
"Yeah I feel really protected right now."
"You should, all these big guys around you. If I was Brian I would be shitting my pants right now." Nick always made me laugh. "So will I get to meet Riley."
"Yeah he is going to be here for awhile, apparently you need his approval to date me."
"Damn straight!" Riley yelled from the front seat and Nick heard it.
"Wow your brother is going to kick my ass."
"No he is not everything is fine, I can't wait for you guys to meet."
"Well I will be nervous no doubt about that, but I'm going to let you go, have fun with your brother be safe, and uh talk me up." My smile was so big.
"I will, bye."
"Bye."
We pulled up to Josh's house and before I could touch one of my bags they both grabbed one. Riley settled down in Josh's other guest room, his house was huge, we all went down stairs and made some sandwiches, it was 3 in the morning and we were all laughing reminiscing on our childhood. I got up for a second and walked to the door.
"Where you going." Josh shut the door.
"I left my carry on in the car, It's not like I'm the president of the United States, I will be fine." Riley walked over
"I will get it!" He said shoving the rest of his sandwich in his mouth.
"You guys don't have to do this, seriously!" I sat down and crossed my arms.
"Kat it's just to keep you safe, please just let us do this for a little bit."
"Whatever." Riley walked in and put my bag down, He had a shocked look on his face. "Why you got that look on your face?" I stood up and looked in my bag.
"I think I just saw Justin." I dropped my bag on the floor.
"Justin? as in Justin Bennett, Brian's brother, your fucking joking, Riley you are joking!" I was practically yelling.
"I don't know it looked like him and when I went outside he sped off." I walked into the living room and put my face in my hands. Riley sat next to me.
"This has got to stop, I can't handle this, I'm not strong enough." Riley didn't say anything, I didn't want him to.
Chapter 22
"Well Ms. Patrick. I've got some good news and some bad news." The doctor sat my chart down on the table.
"Good news first please." I said trying to smile but my face hurt.
"Your nose is not broken so we won't have to put it back in place." He smile and slid around the room on his chair. He was a weird doctor.
"Alright hit me with the bad news." I just stared at him while he rolled around the room.
"It is badly bruised, so you are going to have a very unsightly nose for about 3 weeks, the swelling should go down in about 2 weeks." He stopped moving around and pushed the button on the chair to make it go down, he was hands down the weirdest doctor I have ever met.
"That's not bad, I rather that then it being broken." I hoped up off the table.
"Hold on Missy, that's not it." He walked out and opened the door and two police officers walked in. "Ms. Patrick this is Officer Garcia and Officer Jameson they just need to ask you some questions."
"Wait, what is this all about." I tried to walk out. The larger officer stopped me and asked me to sit down.
"Ms. Patrick, this is standard that we come here and ask you some questions about your boyfriend, especially since he was the one to cause you injury and that he brought you in here, its a safety precaution."
"Um okay but you are wasting your time." Officer Jameson sat down.
"We are willing to waste our time to ensure peoples safety." I sat back down and rolled my eyes. They asked me a million questions, I was so embarrassed because I had to reveal what me and Nick where doing, and about to do before he hit my nose. I walked outside and text Nick to tell him I was okay, just a bruise. I grabbed a cab back to my hotel and had to find something to do for two hours before I headed to the arena. I read a little bit, took a shower, watch some TV, put some make-up on and then I finally headed to the arena. Nick had gotten me a Jersey with his number on it so I wore it. I sat right behind the bench, I was alone it felt a little weird, but I quickly made friends with the two caps fans sitting behind me, they even bought me a beer, I couldn't except it but the thought was nice. I saw Nick and waved to him, to my surprise he waved back. The game was going pretty good and then someone took a cheap shot on Nick, I jump up quite abruptly.
"Watch it!! put him in the box Ref!!" I banged on the glass and Laich turned around, I put my hand over my mouth and sat down, he laughed and then pointed at my noes, I didn't want to distract him from the game so I just shrugged my shoulders.
The game was really close in the beginning but the caps ended up losing 5-2 and Nick had another goal. The team skated off the Ice and I walked outside and sat on one of the benches. I gazed up at the sky. It was about an hour before Nick came out.
"Hey Kiddo, how's the noes?" He walked up and gave me a kiss.
"Fine, nice goal, when you got hit I stood up and yelled." I smiled, proud of myself.
"Yeah Brooksy told me about it, he said you were banging on the glass and everything." He smiled and kissed my head. "I'm going to take you back to your hotel but we have to leave again tonight to go to San Jose. I can spend a little time with you we are leaving in two hours, also I have a car set up for you and everything to take you to the airport."
"Thanks for bringing me out here, It's been a lot of fun." I sinked into his arms.
"I love spending my time with you, I wish you could stay but Josh only gave me two days."
"I know it sucks, and your gonna be gone for three more days too!" I looked up and kissed him.
"That looks painful." He lightly touched my nose.
"It's not that bad, I was to worried about my weird doctor in there to even care about my nose." He laughed
"That guy was sooo weird!! I thought I was the only one who saw that."
"Yeah no you didn't see anything, he was rolling around and spinning in his doctor chair."
"I would have left he creeped me out." He took my hand and started to walk down the sidewalk.
"Why are you guys leaving in two hours, don't you usually just leave right after the game?"
"Yeah but Ovie has got some interviews so a soon as he is done we are leaving." He put his bag down. "I'm gonna call a cap again do you mind."
"No not at all."
We got into the cab and got back to my hotel in about 15 minutes because of the traffic. He walked me up stairs an when we got into my room he kissed me very passionately.
"What was that for?" I tilted my head and kissed him back.
"Remember you were mad at me for ruining the moment, can I make that up for you?"
"Hmmm, I don't, maybe, only if you watch my nose this time, if you hit it again it would hurt a whole lot more."
He pulled my hips into his and slowly took my shirt of, carefully watching my nose. I ran my finger through his wet hair. He tripped when he took his pants off and I laughed into his neck, I couldn't stop I had the giggles.
"I think it's you ruining the moment this time." He laid me on the bed gently, he was treating me like I was very fragile, I guess after he hit my nose he felt really bad.
"I can't help it your so clumsy." I laid down smiling up at him while he was unbuttoning my jeans. "It's cute though."
"Great now I'm a cute, clumsy adorable guy."
"And I love it!"
He slowly laid down, intertwining his legs with mine, he kissed me like he was never going to see me again. He was an amazing kisser, they must have like a Swedish school for kissing, because he was so good. He ran his fingers down my stomach. This wasn't the first time me and Nick had sex but it felt like it. I don't know what got into him but he was so caring and loving, he made me feel very comfortable. The only thing that got me worried was that we didn't have any condoms, so we didn't use one.
"Good news first please." I said trying to smile but my face hurt.
"Your nose is not broken so we won't have to put it back in place." He smile and slid around the room on his chair. He was a weird doctor.
"Alright hit me with the bad news." I just stared at him while he rolled around the room.
"It is badly bruised, so you are going to have a very unsightly nose for about 3 weeks, the swelling should go down in about 2 weeks." He stopped moving around and pushed the button on the chair to make it go down, he was hands down the weirdest doctor I have ever met.
"That's not bad, I rather that then it being broken." I hoped up off the table.
"Hold on Missy, that's not it." He walked out and opened the door and two police officers walked in. "Ms. Patrick this is Officer Garcia and Officer Jameson they just need to ask you some questions."
"Wait, what is this all about." I tried to walk out. The larger officer stopped me and asked me to sit down.
"Ms. Patrick, this is standard that we come here and ask you some questions about your boyfriend, especially since he was the one to cause you injury and that he brought you in here, its a safety precaution."
"Um okay but you are wasting your time." Officer Jameson sat down.
"We are willing to waste our time to ensure peoples safety." I sat back down and rolled my eyes. They asked me a million questions, I was so embarrassed because I had to reveal what me and Nick where doing, and about to do before he hit my nose. I walked outside and text Nick to tell him I was okay, just a bruise. I grabbed a cab back to my hotel and had to find something to do for two hours before I headed to the arena. I read a little bit, took a shower, watch some TV, put some make-up on and then I finally headed to the arena. Nick had gotten me a Jersey with his number on it so I wore it. I sat right behind the bench, I was alone it felt a little weird, but I quickly made friends with the two caps fans sitting behind me, they even bought me a beer, I couldn't except it but the thought was nice. I saw Nick and waved to him, to my surprise he waved back. The game was going pretty good and then someone took a cheap shot on Nick, I jump up quite abruptly.
"Watch it!! put him in the box Ref!!" I banged on the glass and Laich turned around, I put my hand over my mouth and sat down, he laughed and then pointed at my noes, I didn't want to distract him from the game so I just shrugged my shoulders.
The game was really close in the beginning but the caps ended up losing 5-2 and Nick had another goal. The team skated off the Ice and I walked outside and sat on one of the benches. I gazed up at the sky. It was about an hour before Nick came out.
"Hey Kiddo, how's the noes?" He walked up and gave me a kiss.
"Fine, nice goal, when you got hit I stood up and yelled." I smiled, proud of myself.
"Yeah Brooksy told me about it, he said you were banging on the glass and everything." He smiled and kissed my head. "I'm going to take you back to your hotel but we have to leave again tonight to go to San Jose. I can spend a little time with you we are leaving in two hours, also I have a car set up for you and everything to take you to the airport."
"Thanks for bringing me out here, It's been a lot of fun." I sinked into his arms.
"I love spending my time with you, I wish you could stay but Josh only gave me two days."
"I know it sucks, and your gonna be gone for three more days too!" I looked up and kissed him.
"That looks painful." He lightly touched my nose.
"It's not that bad, I was to worried about my weird doctor in there to even care about my nose." He laughed
"That guy was sooo weird!! I thought I was the only one who saw that."
"Yeah no you didn't see anything, he was rolling around and spinning in his doctor chair."
"I would have left he creeped me out." He took my hand and started to walk down the sidewalk.
"Why are you guys leaving in two hours, don't you usually just leave right after the game?"
"Yeah but Ovie has got some interviews so a soon as he is done we are leaving." He put his bag down. "I'm gonna call a cap again do you mind."
"No not at all."
We got into the cab and got back to my hotel in about 15 minutes because of the traffic. He walked me up stairs an when we got into my room he kissed me very passionately.
"What was that for?" I tilted my head and kissed him back.
"Remember you were mad at me for ruining the moment, can I make that up for you?"
"Hmmm, I don't, maybe, only if you watch my nose this time, if you hit it again it would hurt a whole lot more."
He pulled my hips into his and slowly took my shirt of, carefully watching my nose. I ran my finger through his wet hair. He tripped when he took his pants off and I laughed into his neck, I couldn't stop I had the giggles.
"I think it's you ruining the moment this time." He laid me on the bed gently, he was treating me like I was very fragile, I guess after he hit my nose he felt really bad.
"I can't help it your so clumsy." I laid down smiling up at him while he was unbuttoning my jeans. "It's cute though."
"Great now I'm a cute, clumsy adorable guy."
"And I love it!"
He slowly laid down, intertwining his legs with mine, he kissed me like he was never going to see me again. He was an amazing kisser, they must have like a Swedish school for kissing, because he was so good. He ran his fingers down my stomach. This wasn't the first time me and Nick had sex but it felt like it. I don't know what got into him but he was so caring and loving, he made me feel very comfortable. The only thing that got me worried was that we didn't have any condoms, so we didn't use one.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Chapter 21
"Ouch move, move, my hip!" Nick shifted to the side.
"What did I do?" He looked at my side
"No it's cool the railing was just digging into my hip, go ahead." We continued to make out until I heard the ding of the doors opening. I pushed him off just in time before some old lady walked into the elevator. I stepped out first and headed to my room, Nick quickly followed. I opened the door, turned around and shut the door with his body. I pulled him by the neck of his shirt and took him over to the bed. He picked me up and threw me down on the bed and crawled on top of me.
"You are breathing really heavy." I cracked a smile.
"Am I? wow I'm sorry I sound like the wolverine." I put my arms around his neck.
"You don't sound that bad." He slid his hands under my shirt and rubbed up and down my back. He moved his head down and kissed my stomach.
"Is that your phone ringing." Nick lifted his head up.
"Uh yeah." I pulled it out of my pocket.
"Don't answer that."
"I wasn't planning on it." I threw it on the floor. Nothing against Nick but he was a lot bigger then me and was getting kind of heavy, I flipped him over an laid on top of him and kissed his neck. He sat up a little bit and threw off his shirt and accidentally hit me in my nose.
"Shit Kate, oh my god you're bleeding." I got off him and ran to the bathroom, my nose was bleeding profusely.
"Can you grab me some toilet paper." He rushed over and handed me a shit load of toilet paper. "I didn't need that much." I smiled at him.
"I am so sorry, does it hurt." He looked so worried.
"Nick it's fine I have been through worse." I put the toilet paper up to my noes, but it hurt so bad. "Ouch."
"You need to go to the doctor."
"It's just a nose bleed, it will stop in like 20 minutes." He tilted my head back.
"It might be broken, I heard a crunch when I hit it." I handed Nick a hair band.
"Can you put my hair back for me it's all in the way." He attempted to put it back, it was bad but it did the job.
"Wow I feel horrible." He sat me on the bathroom counter and rubbed my legs.
"Don't" I hit his arm. "It was an accident it's all good, I am mad that it ruined my moment you clumsy dip shit!" I laughed.
"Your so mean!" He pushed a loose piece of hair behind my ear.
"I'm just kidding, but I might need to go to the hospital, this really fucking hurts." He walked out and grabbed my jacked, he put on his shirt and helped me down from the counter.
"Wait babe can you grab my phone, I threw it somewhere." He picked it up and shut the door behind him.
"Who called you." He put my jacket on and handed me my phone.
"It was Josh, I got to call him back real quick."
"Cool, tell him I said hi."
"I will." I pushed the button for the elevator and called Josh.
"Hey sorry I forgot to call."
"It's okay, so what are you going to do about this?"
"I'm going to get a restraining order and not talk to him anymore, I will work with out pay for a bit to pay for all the damage." Nick grabbed my hand and pulled me out of the elevator.
"Kat that is crazy, I can pay for it I just wanted to make sure you got a restraining order. You coming home tomorrow?"
"Yeah, I should be if everything is okay, I'm going to the hospital right now."
"Why? are you okay?!" Nick pulled me into a cab, I wasn't even paying attention.
"Yup, I think I broke my noes."
"How the hell did you pull that off?" He laughed a little.
"Me and Nick, well lets not get into the details, but he accidentally elbowed me in the Nose."
"What?! were you guys fighting?!"
"No, we were doing uhh." He cut me off.
"I don't want to know spare me the details." I laughed
"Okay I will call you when I find out if it's broken or not."
"Alright see ya Kat." I hung up the phone and leaned my head back.
"How does it feel?" Nick wrapped his arm around me.
"It's fine it just really hurts." We pulled up to the hospital and I filled out all the paper work and it took about two hours before we saw the doctor. Nick sat down in one of the chairs and looked at his phone.
"Babe I got to go, I have to get to the arena. If you can't come tonight don't worry about it but the ticket for the game is at the front desk of your hotel, text me when you find something out." He got up and kissed me on the forehead.
"Okay I will, Hopefully I will see you tonight." He kissed me again.
"I'm sorry about this, Love ya."
"Dido."
"What did I do?" He looked at my side
"No it's cool the railing was just digging into my hip, go ahead." We continued to make out until I heard the ding of the doors opening. I pushed him off just in time before some old lady walked into the elevator. I stepped out first and headed to my room, Nick quickly followed. I opened the door, turned around and shut the door with his body. I pulled him by the neck of his shirt and took him over to the bed. He picked me up and threw me down on the bed and crawled on top of me.
"You are breathing really heavy." I cracked a smile.
"Am I? wow I'm sorry I sound like the wolverine." I put my arms around his neck.
"You don't sound that bad." He slid his hands under my shirt and rubbed up and down my back. He moved his head down and kissed my stomach.
"Is that your phone ringing." Nick lifted his head up.
"Uh yeah." I pulled it out of my pocket.
"Don't answer that."
"I wasn't planning on it." I threw it on the floor. Nothing against Nick but he was a lot bigger then me and was getting kind of heavy, I flipped him over an laid on top of him and kissed his neck. He sat up a little bit and threw off his shirt and accidentally hit me in my nose.
"Shit Kate, oh my god you're bleeding." I got off him and ran to the bathroom, my nose was bleeding profusely.
"Can you grab me some toilet paper." He rushed over and handed me a shit load of toilet paper. "I didn't need that much." I smiled at him.
"I am so sorry, does it hurt." He looked so worried.
"Nick it's fine I have been through worse." I put the toilet paper up to my noes, but it hurt so bad. "Ouch."
"You need to go to the doctor."
"It's just a nose bleed, it will stop in like 20 minutes." He tilted my head back.
"It might be broken, I heard a crunch when I hit it." I handed Nick a hair band.
"Can you put my hair back for me it's all in the way." He attempted to put it back, it was bad but it did the job.
"Wow I feel horrible." He sat me on the bathroom counter and rubbed my legs.
"Don't" I hit his arm. "It was an accident it's all good, I am mad that it ruined my moment you clumsy dip shit!" I laughed.
"Your so mean!" He pushed a loose piece of hair behind my ear.
"I'm just kidding, but I might need to go to the hospital, this really fucking hurts." He walked out and grabbed my jacked, he put on his shirt and helped me down from the counter.
"Wait babe can you grab my phone, I threw it somewhere." He picked it up and shut the door behind him.
"Who called you." He put my jacket on and handed me my phone.
"It was Josh, I got to call him back real quick."
"Cool, tell him I said hi."
"I will." I pushed the button for the elevator and called Josh.
"Hey sorry I forgot to call."
"It's okay, so what are you going to do about this?"
"I'm going to get a restraining order and not talk to him anymore, I will work with out pay for a bit to pay for all the damage." Nick grabbed my hand and pulled me out of the elevator.
"Kat that is crazy, I can pay for it I just wanted to make sure you got a restraining order. You coming home tomorrow?"
"Yeah, I should be if everything is okay, I'm going to the hospital right now."
"Why? are you okay?!" Nick pulled me into a cab, I wasn't even paying attention.
"Yup, I think I broke my noes."
"How the hell did you pull that off?" He laughed a little.
"Me and Nick, well lets not get into the details, but he accidentally elbowed me in the Nose."
"What?! were you guys fighting?!"
"No, we were doing uhh." He cut me off.
"I don't want to know spare me the details." I laughed
"Okay I will call you when I find out if it's broken or not."
"Alright see ya Kat." I hung up the phone and leaned my head back.
"How does it feel?" Nick wrapped his arm around me.
"It's fine it just really hurts." We pulled up to the hospital and I filled out all the paper work and it took about two hours before we saw the doctor. Nick sat down in one of the chairs and looked at his phone.
"Babe I got to go, I have to get to the arena. If you can't come tonight don't worry about it but the ticket for the game is at the front desk of your hotel, text me when you find something out." He got up and kissed me on the forehead.
"Okay I will, Hopefully I will see you tonight." He kissed me again.
"I'm sorry about this, Love ya."
"Dido."
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Chapter 20
"Come here." Nick said stopping on the side walk. I continued to walk. "Kate please come here for a second." He caught up behind me and grabbed my arm and pulled me into his arms. I buried my head into his chest.
"He is never going to stop. It's my fault for bringing you and Josh into this. When I left Denver I should have stopped contact with him, I'm so sorry."
"Don't say shit like this. I don't care that you came with this baggage, I love you for the person you are no matter whats going on." He pushed my hair back with both of his hands and rested his forehead on mine. "I'm not going to let this guy ruin anything. Tell me what happened."
I turned around as he grabbed his bag and took my hand.
"He ransacked Josh's house and the rental car he got me, so I called him because he has never done this to me. I told him to leave Josh alone but he told me not to worry about Josh and something like Karma's a bitch." Right then my phone started to ring.
"Hi mom."
"Kate what's going on, are you okay, are you hurt? Where is Brian I will kill him! Are you safe?!" She was going a mile a minute.
"Mom calm down, everything is okay. I'm in LA right now with Nick. I'm going back to Arlington to get a restraining order."
"Okay sweetheart. I'm just worried." He voice started to crack
"Mom please don't cry." Nick took my phone, once again.
"Mind?"
"I don't think I have a choice."
"Hi Mrs. Lisa, it's Nick." He had a very nice tone.
"Hi hunny, how are you?" He continued walking and smiling.
"Pretty good, just found out myself what happened with Brian, I just want to let you know I'm not going to let anything happen to Kate, and neither is Josh."
"Thank you. It's just I have never trusted that boy. He was never nice to her. Actually I very much dislike his whole family, they have really caused her some trouble."
"I completely agree, I just want to put you at ease knowing that she is safe and we are going to keep him away from her."
"You are such a sweetheart it's a wonder why Kate likes you so much. She always went for the assholes. My family is looking forward to meeting you."
"Family?"
"Of course all my sons want to meet you. They are huge hockey fans."
"Wow hopefully I won't get beaten up to bad."
"Oh I'm sure they will go easy on you." Nick laughed.
"Good, well I'm going to hand you back to Kate now, can't wait to meet you."
"You too sweetheart." Nick handed me the phone. I had a very surprised smile on my face.
"You okay now mom?"
"Yeah, you found a good one Kate. Hold on to him!" I laughed
"I'll think about it." I looked over at Nick.
"Bye darling, I love you."
"Bye mom, love ya too." I hung up the phone and looked at Nick.
"What?" He smiled
"It's just none of the guys I ever dated talk to my mom like that. She means the world to me and that was just really nice what you did, really nice."
"Well from the looks of it you dated guys that were not brought up right." He pulled me in by my hips.
"Yeah you can say that again."
"Well from the looks of it you dated...." I put my hand over his mouth.
"Shush." I laughed
"Did you just shush me woman?!" He dropped his bag and pinned me against a building wall.
"Yeah I did, what are you gonna do about it hotshot!" He kissed me, and started to tickle me.
"Nick donnnn'tttt I hate it!!!!!!! stop it." I was so jumpy when it came to people tickling me. "Oh my god I'm going to pee!!!! I will pee all over you if you don't stop. AHHH stopppp!!" He didn't stop
"Only if you say Boys rule and girls drool."
"Never!!!" he kept going "Okay, okay, okkkaaayyyy!!! I will say it if you sttoopp I can't, stop! I can't say it when your doing that!" He stopped and I took off down the side walk. He picked up his bag and ran after me. I hid behind a corner and jumped on his back when he passed me.
"Fuck! you scared the shit out of me."
"Truce!" I put my hand out and he shook it.
"Truce, you are the jumpiest person I have ever met." He said catching his breath.
"I can't help it I'm so ticklish." I kissed him and bit his lip gently and pulled it out.
"Don't do that."
"Why you don't like it?"
"I do, it's just it well, don't do it unless we are alone, in a room." He winked
"Shut up, I do what I want!" I was walking backwards and did it again, then I slowly kissed his neck.
"Seriously?!" He lifted me up over his shoulder and walked into the hotel.
"Nick don't! people are staring"
"Let them stare." He finally put me down in the elevator and pushed me up against the wall. We started to make out right in the elevator.
"When do you have to leave for your game." I said in mid kiss.
"Not anytime soon."
"He is never going to stop. It's my fault for bringing you and Josh into this. When I left Denver I should have stopped contact with him, I'm so sorry."
"Don't say shit like this. I don't care that you came with this baggage, I love you for the person you are no matter whats going on." He pushed my hair back with both of his hands and rested his forehead on mine. "I'm not going to let this guy ruin anything. Tell me what happened."
I turned around as he grabbed his bag and took my hand.
"He ransacked Josh's house and the rental car he got me, so I called him because he has never done this to me. I told him to leave Josh alone but he told me not to worry about Josh and something like Karma's a bitch." Right then my phone started to ring.
"Hi mom."
"Kate what's going on, are you okay, are you hurt? Where is Brian I will kill him! Are you safe?!" She was going a mile a minute.
"Mom calm down, everything is okay. I'm in LA right now with Nick. I'm going back to Arlington to get a restraining order."
"Okay sweetheart. I'm just worried." He voice started to crack
"Mom please don't cry." Nick took my phone, once again.
"Mind?"
"I don't think I have a choice."
"Hi Mrs. Lisa, it's Nick." He had a very nice tone.
"Hi hunny, how are you?" He continued walking and smiling.
"Pretty good, just found out myself what happened with Brian, I just want to let you know I'm not going to let anything happen to Kate, and neither is Josh."
"Thank you. It's just I have never trusted that boy. He was never nice to her. Actually I very much dislike his whole family, they have really caused her some trouble."
"I completely agree, I just want to put you at ease knowing that she is safe and we are going to keep him away from her."
"You are such a sweetheart it's a wonder why Kate likes you so much. She always went for the assholes. My family is looking forward to meeting you."
"Family?"
"Of course all my sons want to meet you. They are huge hockey fans."
"Wow hopefully I won't get beaten up to bad."
"Oh I'm sure they will go easy on you." Nick laughed.
"Good, well I'm going to hand you back to Kate now, can't wait to meet you."
"You too sweetheart." Nick handed me the phone. I had a very surprised smile on my face.
"You okay now mom?"
"Yeah, you found a good one Kate. Hold on to him!" I laughed
"I'll think about it." I looked over at Nick.
"Bye darling, I love you."
"Bye mom, love ya too." I hung up the phone and looked at Nick.
"What?" He smiled
"It's just none of the guys I ever dated talk to my mom like that. She means the world to me and that was just really nice what you did, really nice."
"Well from the looks of it you dated guys that were not brought up right." He pulled me in by my hips.
"Yeah you can say that again."
"Well from the looks of it you dated...." I put my hand over his mouth.
"Shush." I laughed
"Did you just shush me woman?!" He dropped his bag and pinned me against a building wall.
"Yeah I did, what are you gonna do about it hotshot!" He kissed me, and started to tickle me.
"Nick donnnn'tttt I hate it!!!!!!! stop it." I was so jumpy when it came to people tickling me. "Oh my god I'm going to pee!!!! I will pee all over you if you don't stop. AHHH stopppp!!" He didn't stop
"Only if you say Boys rule and girls drool."
"Never!!!" he kept going "Okay, okay, okkkaaayyyy!!! I will say it if you sttoopp I can't, stop! I can't say it when your doing that!" He stopped and I took off down the side walk. He picked up his bag and ran after me. I hid behind a corner and jumped on his back when he passed me.
"Fuck! you scared the shit out of me."
"Truce!" I put my hand out and he shook it.
"Truce, you are the jumpiest person I have ever met." He said catching his breath.
"I can't help it I'm so ticklish." I kissed him and bit his lip gently and pulled it out.
"Don't do that."
"Why you don't like it?"
"I do, it's just it well, don't do it unless we are alone, in a room." He winked
"Shut up, I do what I want!" I was walking backwards and did it again, then I slowly kissed his neck.
"Seriously?!" He lifted me up over his shoulder and walked into the hotel.
"Nick don't! people are staring"
"Let them stare." He finally put me down in the elevator and pushed me up against the wall. We started to make out right in the elevator.
"When do you have to leave for your game." I said in mid kiss.
"Not anytime soon."
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Chapter 19
"Where is this place?" I leaned out and looked down the street holding on to Nick's hand.
"It's about 10 blocks away." He waved his hand out for a cab
"Can we walk Instead. I have never been to LA." He kissed me and pulled me into the cab "Well nevermind then."
"I'm sorry it's just I'm going to be late, I can walk you back after practice." He looked over and smiled at me. He rested his arm on my legs and proceeded to tell the Taxi where he needed to go. I moved his arm and shifted to rest both of my legs on his lap and put my head on his shoulder.
"well you just made yourself very comfortable didn't you." He wrapped his arm around me.
"Are you uncomfortable? I can move." He chuckled
"Kate, No, I like it." I smiled and rubbed his chest
"Awww arn't you just so adorable!" he lifted his eyebrows
"Adorable? can't I be like hot, or sexy? Something manly."
"Nope, your adorable. Sorry." He pulled me in and kissed my head.
The taxi pulled up in front of a practice arena. Nick somehow reached over and opened my door. I got out and he followed. He wrapped his arm around my waist and and we walked into the rink.
"You can sit here. we will be done in about 2 hours. The food stand is up that hall if your hungry."
"I will be fine." I kissed him and smacked his butt as he walked away. Nick turned around and winked.
I Had fun watching them practice. I always do, I love how they goof around so much. I walk to the food stand to get a pretzel. I noticed my phone had one miss call. I didn't even hear it in the rink.
"Hey Josh what's up, sorry I didn't hear my phone ring."
"It's okay. So can you talk for a minute?" He sounded a little unusual so I walked outside and sat on the bench.
"Yeah what's the matter."
"Have you talked to Brian recently." Now I was sick of hearing about Brian.
"He called me today but I didn't answer."
"You need to come home and get a restraining order." I was shocked. I didn't know what to say.
"what is going on?!" I was getting a little annoyed just because I was scared that Josh was hurt.
"I came home this morning from my club, The windows in my house are busted out, there is stuff written all over the sides of the house. You rental car is done, it is busted up so bad. Stuff from your room is missing. When I saw the car I walked over to it and there are pictures in it all over the place, of you and Brain. I don't trust him whatsoever and you are getting a restraining order. end of story." I didn't say anything. I did not know what to say.
"Kat, I'm not going to let him hurt you. Stop thinking about his feelings and start thinking about your safety."
"I just need to think for a minute. can I call you back please." I rested my head in my hand.
"If you don't call me back in an hour I'm calling you."
"Okay."
Brian had never hurt me. Sure he has threatened, he did it all the time but he never followed through with it. He has never done anything like this, I had to talk to him. I had to know what was going through his mind, what his intentions were.
"Brian?" He answered the phone but didn't say anything. "Brian, what the hell is going on."
"Do you love him?" He said in a cold voice.
"Can we not talk about this right now."
"Once again, Do you love him?" He had no emotion in his voice.
"Tell me what's going..."
"Do you fucking love him!" I had never heard him like this. It scared me.
"Yes I do. You need to stop. Leave Josh alone he has noting to do with this."
"I don't think you need to worry about Josh. Karma's a bitch and you will get what you deserve." He hung up the phone and I couldn't move. Everyone told me he was a bad influence, he was a bad person, and he was dangerous. The last time I saw Brian get like this was when he found out what his brother did to me. I felt like I owed him something for saving me from his brother, but Nick was right I didn't owe him anything. I needed to listen to what Josh and Nick were trying to tell me. I needed to protect myself.
I went back inside and sat down. I had a blank expression on my face. I couldn't think straight. Nick came up to me after they were finished.
"Ready to walk back." He sat his gear next to me and pulled me up by my hands.
"I talked to Josh." He smiled, I didn't
"Really how is he doing."
"I need to go back to Arlington. I need to get a restraining order."I Hung my head down again.
"Kate what happened, Is he okay?"
"Yes, I just need to make sure everything is okay with the house and all. Walk me back to the hotel and I will tell you what happened."
"Did you talk to Brian?"
"Yeah I did, and I'm really scared."
"It's about 10 blocks away." He waved his hand out for a cab
"Can we walk Instead. I have never been to LA." He kissed me and pulled me into the cab "Well nevermind then."
"I'm sorry it's just I'm going to be late, I can walk you back after practice." He looked over and smiled at me. He rested his arm on my legs and proceeded to tell the Taxi where he needed to go. I moved his arm and shifted to rest both of my legs on his lap and put my head on his shoulder.
"well you just made yourself very comfortable didn't you." He wrapped his arm around me.
"Are you uncomfortable? I can move." He chuckled
"Kate, No, I like it." I smiled and rubbed his chest
"Awww arn't you just so adorable!" he lifted his eyebrows
"Adorable? can't I be like hot, or sexy? Something manly."
"Nope, your adorable. Sorry." He pulled me in and kissed my head.
The taxi pulled up in front of a practice arena. Nick somehow reached over and opened my door. I got out and he followed. He wrapped his arm around my waist and and we walked into the rink.
"You can sit here. we will be done in about 2 hours. The food stand is up that hall if your hungry."
"I will be fine." I kissed him and smacked his butt as he walked away. Nick turned around and winked.
I Had fun watching them practice. I always do, I love how they goof around so much. I walk to the food stand to get a pretzel. I noticed my phone had one miss call. I didn't even hear it in the rink.
"Hey Josh what's up, sorry I didn't hear my phone ring."
"It's okay. So can you talk for a minute?" He sounded a little unusual so I walked outside and sat on the bench.
"Yeah what's the matter."
"Have you talked to Brian recently." Now I was sick of hearing about Brian.
"He called me today but I didn't answer."
"You need to come home and get a restraining order." I was shocked. I didn't know what to say.
"what is going on?!" I was getting a little annoyed just because I was scared that Josh was hurt.
"I came home this morning from my club, The windows in my house are busted out, there is stuff written all over the sides of the house. You rental car is done, it is busted up so bad. Stuff from your room is missing. When I saw the car I walked over to it and there are pictures in it all over the place, of you and Brain. I don't trust him whatsoever and you are getting a restraining order. end of story." I didn't say anything. I did not know what to say.
"Kat, I'm not going to let him hurt you. Stop thinking about his feelings and start thinking about your safety."
"I just need to think for a minute. can I call you back please." I rested my head in my hand.
"If you don't call me back in an hour I'm calling you."
"Okay."
Brian had never hurt me. Sure he has threatened, he did it all the time but he never followed through with it. He has never done anything like this, I had to talk to him. I had to know what was going through his mind, what his intentions were.
"Brian?" He answered the phone but didn't say anything. "Brian, what the hell is going on."
"Do you love him?" He said in a cold voice.
"Can we not talk about this right now."
"Once again, Do you love him?" He had no emotion in his voice.
"Tell me what's going..."
"Do you fucking love him!" I had never heard him like this. It scared me.
"Yes I do. You need to stop. Leave Josh alone he has noting to do with this."
"I don't think you need to worry about Josh. Karma's a bitch and you will get what you deserve." He hung up the phone and I couldn't move. Everyone told me he was a bad influence, he was a bad person, and he was dangerous. The last time I saw Brian get like this was when he found out what his brother did to me. I felt like I owed him something for saving me from his brother, but Nick was right I didn't owe him anything. I needed to listen to what Josh and Nick were trying to tell me. I needed to protect myself.
I went back inside and sat down. I had a blank expression on my face. I couldn't think straight. Nick came up to me after they were finished.
"Ready to walk back." He sat his gear next to me and pulled me up by my hands.
"I talked to Josh." He smiled, I didn't
"Really how is he doing."
"I need to go back to Arlington. I need to get a restraining order."I Hung my head down again.
"Kate what happened, Is he okay?"
"Yes, I just need to make sure everything is okay with the house and all. Walk me back to the hotel and I will tell you what happened."
"Did you talk to Brian?"
"Yeah I did, and I'm really scared."
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Chapter 18
"You feeling okay?" I woke up to Nick sitting up in the bed running his fingers through my hair
"Yeah." I sat up and rubbed my eyes. "What time is it?"
"It's 6:30 I have to leave here at 8 to get to practice, you want some breakfast?"
"Yeah I will take scrambled eggs with a side of sleep." I laid back down but Nick pulled me back up. "Hey man... I have never seen the hour of 6:30 am, I'm always sleeping."
"I want to take you out before I leave." I leaned in a kissed him
"Okay, only if you carry me to the bathroom." I was just kidding but he took it seriously and lifted me up and took me to the bathroom. "Babe! I was just kidding."
"Well your here now, I need a shower, do you want to take one first." I yawned and didn't say anything I got in the shower first and turned on the water.
"Can we share the shower?" He opened the curtain with a cute grin.
"Only if you don't hog it, you always use all the hot water!" he laughed
"It's a hotel I don't think they run out of hot water."
"Oh right, well come on it!" I laughed as he slipped when he got in and almost fell.
"Nick don't you dare put that in my eyes I will bite you, Nick don't!!!"
"Its just a little soap the pain goes away." He started laughing at me "Ouch wow you just bit me, holy shit that hurt!"
"Don't worry the pain goes away." I smiled at him and continued to take my shower
we were ready at about 7 and went downstairs to get some breakfast. Me and Nick never really held hands when we were out in public, I wasn't sure why but when we walked down the stairs he grabbed my hand.
"Wow, you never hold my hand in public." I kissed him on the cheek.
"I know, and I'm sorry, I don't know why I never do."
"Maybe it's because you still think girls have cooties!" He wrapped his arm around my shoulders
"If you had cooties I would be infested." I smiled at him and followed him as he pulled me along with his hand. We sat down at the hotels restaurant and ordered some drinks I just got regular eggs but I guess hockey players have to eat a lot for breakfast
"You ordered a shitload of food!!! are you going to eat all of it?" He laughed as he took a sip of his orange juice.
"Breakfast is the most important meal of the day, I will probably burn most of it off in practice anyway."
"Yeah well that makes sense." I rubbed my leg against his
We finished up breakfast and he walked me back up to my room.
"I'm sorry I have to go, will you be okay?" he pushed back my hair and kissed my neck.
"Yeah I'm fine. I will see you at the game" I wrapped my arms around him right when my phone started to ring.
"If that is Brian I'm going to fucking kick his ass, I swear." Nicks tone was very angry. I looked at my phone and of course it was Brian.
"I'm not going to answer it, if I just ignore him he will leave me alone."
"Let me answer it." Nick went for my phone but I pulled it away.
"Please, just ignore it eventually he will get bored and leave me alone, lets not egg him on." Nick rolled his eyes
"Fine, but I really don't think you should talk to him, for your own good not because I don't like him." I rested my head on his chest.
"I hear what your saying and I completely agree." I pulled away and gave him a kiss "It seems as though he has left me a voice message."
"Listen to it on speaker phone!" Nick sounded excited
"Okay." I opened my voice mail and put it on speaker phone.
"Kate your going to ignore my phone calls now, how sweet. When I said you were making the biggest mistake of your life I wasn't joking. you better watch you fucking back bitch." I didn't move, I didn't look at Nick. I stood there still.
"We need to call the police." Nick shut my phone and looked at me
"No we don't, he is just angry he will get over it." he looked very shocked when I said that.
"Are you serious Kate, he just threatened you." I sighed
"Yes I am serious, Brian has never hurt me he wouldn't think of it. Like I said just ignore it."
"If he says one word to you again or comes near you I'm calling the police. I don't care what you say." I crossed my arms.
"Nick the thing is..." I couldn't finish before my phone started to ring again. Nick snatch it out of my hands.
"You come near her, you touch her, you will be fucking sorry." He hung up the phone before Brian could say anything.
"I want you to come to practice with me." Nick handed me my phone
"Why." I was upset and a little pissed about what just happened.
"So your mad at me now." He put his hands in his pocket.
"No, I'm just mad at how you handled that."
"Kate why do you keep defending this guy, he has treated you like shit. You don't owe him anything. If this is going to be a constant problem I don't know if I can handle this. I'm tired of hearing about him, I'm tired of him being able to talk to you anyway he wishes. It's bullshit." As much as I didn't want to believe Nick I needed to. Brain was not worth getting worked up about. I needed to let go of him for good. For my sake and Nicks.
"Okay, your right I'm sorry. I won't say anything about him ever again. I won't talk to him. He is done. I'm sorry this has even been a problem." He smiled and kissed me.
"Can you still come to practice with me I will feel better."
"Of course I will, let me grab my jacket."
"Yeah." I sat up and rubbed my eyes. "What time is it?"
"It's 6:30 I have to leave here at 8 to get to practice, you want some breakfast?"
"Yeah I will take scrambled eggs with a side of sleep." I laid back down but Nick pulled me back up. "Hey man... I have never seen the hour of 6:30 am, I'm always sleeping."
"I want to take you out before I leave." I leaned in a kissed him
"Okay, only if you carry me to the bathroom." I was just kidding but he took it seriously and lifted me up and took me to the bathroom. "Babe! I was just kidding."
"Well your here now, I need a shower, do you want to take one first." I yawned and didn't say anything I got in the shower first and turned on the water.
"Can we share the shower?" He opened the curtain with a cute grin.
"Only if you don't hog it, you always use all the hot water!" he laughed
"It's a hotel I don't think they run out of hot water."
"Oh right, well come on it!" I laughed as he slipped when he got in and almost fell.
"Nick don't you dare put that in my eyes I will bite you, Nick don't!!!"
"Its just a little soap the pain goes away." He started laughing at me "Ouch wow you just bit me, holy shit that hurt!"
"Don't worry the pain goes away." I smiled at him and continued to take my shower
we were ready at about 7 and went downstairs to get some breakfast. Me and Nick never really held hands when we were out in public, I wasn't sure why but when we walked down the stairs he grabbed my hand.
"Wow, you never hold my hand in public." I kissed him on the cheek.
"I know, and I'm sorry, I don't know why I never do."
"Maybe it's because you still think girls have cooties!" He wrapped his arm around my shoulders
"If you had cooties I would be infested." I smiled at him and followed him as he pulled me along with his hand. We sat down at the hotels restaurant and ordered some drinks I just got regular eggs but I guess hockey players have to eat a lot for breakfast
"You ordered a shitload of food!!! are you going to eat all of it?" He laughed as he took a sip of his orange juice.
"Breakfast is the most important meal of the day, I will probably burn most of it off in practice anyway."
"Yeah well that makes sense." I rubbed my leg against his
We finished up breakfast and he walked me back up to my room.
"I'm sorry I have to go, will you be okay?" he pushed back my hair and kissed my neck.
"Yeah I'm fine. I will see you at the game" I wrapped my arms around him right when my phone started to ring.
"If that is Brian I'm going to fucking kick his ass, I swear." Nicks tone was very angry. I looked at my phone and of course it was Brian.
"I'm not going to answer it, if I just ignore him he will leave me alone."
"Let me answer it." Nick went for my phone but I pulled it away.
"Please, just ignore it eventually he will get bored and leave me alone, lets not egg him on." Nick rolled his eyes
"Fine, but I really don't think you should talk to him, for your own good not because I don't like him." I rested my head on his chest.
"I hear what your saying and I completely agree." I pulled away and gave him a kiss "It seems as though he has left me a voice message."
"Listen to it on speaker phone!" Nick sounded excited
"Okay." I opened my voice mail and put it on speaker phone.
"Kate your going to ignore my phone calls now, how sweet. When I said you were making the biggest mistake of your life I wasn't joking. you better watch you fucking back bitch." I didn't move, I didn't look at Nick. I stood there still.
"We need to call the police." Nick shut my phone and looked at me
"No we don't, he is just angry he will get over it." he looked very shocked when I said that.
"Are you serious Kate, he just threatened you." I sighed
"Yes I am serious, Brian has never hurt me he wouldn't think of it. Like I said just ignore it."
"If he says one word to you again or comes near you I'm calling the police. I don't care what you say." I crossed my arms.
"Nick the thing is..." I couldn't finish before my phone started to ring again. Nick snatch it out of my hands.
"You come near her, you touch her, you will be fucking sorry." He hung up the phone before Brian could say anything.
"I want you to come to practice with me." Nick handed me my phone
"Why." I was upset and a little pissed about what just happened.
"So your mad at me now." He put his hands in his pocket.
"No, I'm just mad at how you handled that."
"Kate why do you keep defending this guy, he has treated you like shit. You don't owe him anything. If this is going to be a constant problem I don't know if I can handle this. I'm tired of hearing about him, I'm tired of him being able to talk to you anyway he wishes. It's bullshit." As much as I didn't want to believe Nick I needed to. Brain was not worth getting worked up about. I needed to let go of him for good. For my sake and Nicks.
"Okay, your right I'm sorry. I won't say anything about him ever again. I won't talk to him. He is done. I'm sorry this has even been a problem." He smiled and kissed me.
"Can you still come to practice with me I will feel better."
"Of course I will, let me grab my jacket."
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Chapter 17
"I just want to ask you one thing before I tell you." I put my head down. I was nervous about revealing my past.
"Anything."
"Even if what I say does changes how you feel about me, will you go easy on me tonight?" He shook his head and sighed
"Kate I'm not going to think of you differently."
"Maybe you won't maybe you will, just promise me." He kissed my forehead
"I promise."
"Alright." I let out a deep breath. "Here goes. I was about 14 years old when I went over Brian's for his birthday. All his friends where there, I was the only girl. His big brother was also there and he was 17 or 18 at the time." I started to cry and asked Nick to get me some tissues
"It's okay, you don't have to tell me."
"No, I want to." I wiped my eyes "Well apparently his brother liked me but I didn't. He took me into his room that night and said that he just got a new hamster and he wanted to show me. Well while we were in there everyone else was downstairs and he asked me if I liked him, I said no he got angry and he, well um, he raped me." I couldn't hold back my tears. Nick wiped them away.
"Kate you think this is going to change how I feel about you?!" I was still looking down.
"That's just the beginning." I grabbed some more tissues "Well I know when your young you don't really know the pattern of your period, but I completely missed mine."
"Kate."
"Yup, he got me pregnant, 14 years old and I was fucking pregnant."
"I'm so sorry I had no idea, I would have never asked you to tell me." He hugged me and wouldn't let go.
"But wait, there is more." I said it to be a joke but to me it really wasn't "Well everyone wanted to know who it was, but I wouldn't say. The only person I told was Brian, well he told his parents, my parents pressed charges and he spent a year in jail and got out. there family fell apart and it was my fault."
"It's not your fault." He ran his finger through my hair.
"Yeah it is because I did not get an abortion." His face changed, he looked very shocked.
"What did you do?"
"I decided to go through with the pregnancy, it was very hard. My parents home schooled me until they were born."
"They?"
"I had twins...... but I didn't keep them."
"you gave them up for adoption?" He was holding my hands very tightly
"Sort of. My oldest brother Brandon, him and his wife couldn't get pregnant so they adopted Julie and Allison. I am their aunt, at least that is what they believe. I see them all the time and I have to be their Aunt, not their mother and it kills me sometimes."
"Kate you are a strong person and if you think this will change anything your crazy." I began to cry harder
"Like I said Nick, this is just the beginning."
"You don't have to tell me anything else if you don't want to. I don't want you to be this upset."
"It's okay I will be fine, I mean I lived this, I should be able to talk about it." I made sure to wipe my cheeks because my make-up was running. "Well after the pregnancy, I was diagnosed with postpartum depression. Brian introduced me to weed, I smoked every day. It wasn't enough." I took a deep breath. I looked at Nick. He did not take his eyes away from me.
"Well, after smoking wasn't enough I started to use harder drugs, name anything and I probably did it. My parents found out, I was in and out of hospitals and rehab. I was home schooled from my freshman year to my junior year. All that Brian ever did for me was encourage it. He bought stuff for me all the time. I was a horrible person, I would break into peoples home and steal their prescriptions most of the time Brian was there pushing me up into the window. I was just a horrible person. I have been clean for a year now but it still haunts me." This time I didn't look at him, I did not want to see his expression.
"Kate, all I can say is thank you for letting me in. Don't be afraid of me for the love of god please let me help you. Don't shut me out. I'm not here to judge you I'm here to love you and take care of you." I couldn't even say anything to him I felt so ashamed I leaned into his shoulder and just cried he whispered in my ear.
"I am so sorry, I love you. you make me so happy."
"I love you."
He laid me down and hoovered over me rubbing my back for about an hour until I fell asleep.
"Anything."
"Even if what I say does changes how you feel about me, will you go easy on me tonight?" He shook his head and sighed
"Kate I'm not going to think of you differently."
"Maybe you won't maybe you will, just promise me." He kissed my forehead
"I promise."
"Alright." I let out a deep breath. "Here goes. I was about 14 years old when I went over Brian's for his birthday. All his friends where there, I was the only girl. His big brother was also there and he was 17 or 18 at the time." I started to cry and asked Nick to get me some tissues
"It's okay, you don't have to tell me."
"No, I want to." I wiped my eyes "Well apparently his brother liked me but I didn't. He took me into his room that night and said that he just got a new hamster and he wanted to show me. Well while we were in there everyone else was downstairs and he asked me if I liked him, I said no he got angry and he, well um, he raped me." I couldn't hold back my tears. Nick wiped them away.
"Kate you think this is going to change how I feel about you?!" I was still looking down.
"That's just the beginning." I grabbed some more tissues "Well I know when your young you don't really know the pattern of your period, but I completely missed mine."
"Kate."
"Yup, he got me pregnant, 14 years old and I was fucking pregnant."
"I'm so sorry I had no idea, I would have never asked you to tell me." He hugged me and wouldn't let go.
"But wait, there is more." I said it to be a joke but to me it really wasn't "Well everyone wanted to know who it was, but I wouldn't say. The only person I told was Brian, well he told his parents, my parents pressed charges and he spent a year in jail and got out. there family fell apart and it was my fault."
"It's not your fault." He ran his finger through my hair.
"Yeah it is because I did not get an abortion." His face changed, he looked very shocked.
"What did you do?"
"I decided to go through with the pregnancy, it was very hard. My parents home schooled me until they were born."
"They?"
"I had twins...... but I didn't keep them."
"you gave them up for adoption?" He was holding my hands very tightly
"Sort of. My oldest brother Brandon, him and his wife couldn't get pregnant so they adopted Julie and Allison. I am their aunt, at least that is what they believe. I see them all the time and I have to be their Aunt, not their mother and it kills me sometimes."
"Kate you are a strong person and if you think this will change anything your crazy." I began to cry harder
"Like I said Nick, this is just the beginning."
"You don't have to tell me anything else if you don't want to. I don't want you to be this upset."
"It's okay I will be fine, I mean I lived this, I should be able to talk about it." I made sure to wipe my cheeks because my make-up was running. "Well after the pregnancy, I was diagnosed with postpartum depression. Brian introduced me to weed, I smoked every day. It wasn't enough." I took a deep breath. I looked at Nick. He did not take his eyes away from me.
"Well, after smoking wasn't enough I started to use harder drugs, name anything and I probably did it. My parents found out, I was in and out of hospitals and rehab. I was home schooled from my freshman year to my junior year. All that Brian ever did for me was encourage it. He bought stuff for me all the time. I was a horrible person, I would break into peoples home and steal their prescriptions most of the time Brian was there pushing me up into the window. I was just a horrible person. I have been clean for a year now but it still haunts me." This time I didn't look at him, I did not want to see his expression.
"Kate, all I can say is thank you for letting me in. Don't be afraid of me for the love of god please let me help you. Don't shut me out. I'm not here to judge you I'm here to love you and take care of you." I couldn't even say anything to him I felt so ashamed I leaned into his shoulder and just cried he whispered in my ear.
"I am so sorry, I love you. you make me so happy."
"I love you."
He laid me down and hoovered over me rubbing my back for about an hour until I fell asleep.
Chapter 16
"What why?" I pulled the covers over my head
"Oh I woke you up, I know that voice anywhere." I laughed but it sounded more like an old woman's laugh who smoked all her life.
"Whatever, so what are you talking about." I got up and wrapped the covers around me and walked downstairs Josh was reading the newspaper and eating a bagel.
"I was thinking since we have a 2 day break before we go to our next game over here, I could fly you over and we can talk about everything and you could come to my game." I sat in the living room and turned on the TV.
"I don't know Nick I have work."
"Can't you take a small break I'm sure Josh won't mind." I kicked my feet up onto the table and started flipping through the channels.
"I know but he has given me so much these past couple months and he has really taken care of me, I don't want to let him down."
"Kate I have already."
"Hold on Nick."
"Hey Josh what's up." Josh was standing behind me. I turned to look at him
"Kat go, I will help you pack he already sent me the tickets via e-mail, It's fine."
"Huh??" I turned back around "Wait Nick you already talked to him?"
"Yeah I was trying to tell you that now get your ass up and pack, I want to see you."
"okay okay what time is my flight?"
"It's 6:25."
"Wow that's enough time!!" I was being sarcastic, I said good bye and ran up stairs. I tripped on my blanket and face planted and Josh could not stop laughing the whole time he was helping me pack.
"It's not funny!!" I was laughing too
"Yeah it is you cannot say it isn't, I mean if I threw a really wrapped tight burrito on the floor that's what you looked like." He was laughing so hard he had to put my clothes down for a second just to laugh.
"Stopppp! your making me laugh I gotta pack!" It took us about and hour to pack because we kept laughing. Josh drove me to the airport we got there at 6 and I check my bags in. I gave Josh a hug but he pulled my arm back in.
"Kat, whatever you say to him or tell him he is still going to care about you, he is a good guy and you deserve this more than anyone I know. Don't be afraid to let him see you for who you are." He kissed my head and wished me good luck.
"Thank you so much Josh, I will see you when I get back."
I got on the plane and my hands started to shake. For some reason I loved roller coasters, bungee jumping and everything crazy like that but I was scared shitless of planes. I chewed as much gum as I could put in my mouth. The plane ride was about 6 hours and it was horrible, a baby was crying the whole time behind me, some drunk guy next to me passed out on my shoulder, and we hit some bad turbulence.
"Thank god that's over." I said to myself rolling my carry on down the hallway. I called Nick but forgot about the time difference and realized it was only 9 here not 12, he was still at his game. I sat on the bench wondering what I was suppose to do. I walked to the baggage pick up and grabbed my bag. I turned around and saw a man standing with a sign that said Ms Kate Patrick.
"Hi, I'm Kate." I was leaning over because my bag was so heavy
"Welcome to LA let me take your bags."
"Oh it's okay I can carry them." I was lying but I didn't want to be rude
"It's my pleasure." He took them anyway and walked me to a limo. A LIMO! I have never been in one. I was so excited.
"Well here is where you will be staying, your room is already set up just give the baggage man at the front this note and you will have to show him your drivers license just so he knows it is you."
The driver took my bags to the front and said goodbye.
"Thank you so much!" I turned around and a short well dressed man said a very high pitched hello that made me jump.
"Sorry to startle you Ms Let me take you to your room."
"Oh I woke you up, I know that voice anywhere." I laughed but it sounded more like an old woman's laugh who smoked all her life.
"Whatever, so what are you talking about." I got up and wrapped the covers around me and walked downstairs Josh was reading the newspaper and eating a bagel.
"I was thinking since we have a 2 day break before we go to our next game over here, I could fly you over and we can talk about everything and you could come to my game." I sat in the living room and turned on the TV.
"I don't know Nick I have work."
"Can't you take a small break I'm sure Josh won't mind." I kicked my feet up onto the table and started flipping through the channels.
"I know but he has given me so much these past couple months and he has really taken care of me, I don't want to let him down."
"Kate I have already."
"Hold on Nick."
"Hey Josh what's up." Josh was standing behind me. I turned to look at him
"Kat go, I will help you pack he already sent me the tickets via e-mail, It's fine."
"Huh??" I turned back around "Wait Nick you already talked to him?"
"Yeah I was trying to tell you that now get your ass up and pack, I want to see you."
"okay okay what time is my flight?"
"It's 6:25."
"Wow that's enough time!!" I was being sarcastic, I said good bye and ran up stairs. I tripped on my blanket and face planted and Josh could not stop laughing the whole time he was helping me pack.
"It's not funny!!" I was laughing too
"Yeah it is you cannot say it isn't, I mean if I threw a really wrapped tight burrito on the floor that's what you looked like." He was laughing so hard he had to put my clothes down for a second just to laugh.
"Stopppp! your making me laugh I gotta pack!" It took us about and hour to pack because we kept laughing. Josh drove me to the airport we got there at 6 and I check my bags in. I gave Josh a hug but he pulled my arm back in.
"Kat, whatever you say to him or tell him he is still going to care about you, he is a good guy and you deserve this more than anyone I know. Don't be afraid to let him see you for who you are." He kissed my head and wished me good luck.
"Thank you so much Josh, I will see you when I get back."
I got on the plane and my hands started to shake. For some reason I loved roller coasters, bungee jumping and everything crazy like that but I was scared shitless of planes. I chewed as much gum as I could put in my mouth. The plane ride was about 6 hours and it was horrible, a baby was crying the whole time behind me, some drunk guy next to me passed out on my shoulder, and we hit some bad turbulence.
"Thank god that's over." I said to myself rolling my carry on down the hallway. I called Nick but forgot about the time difference and realized it was only 9 here not 12, he was still at his game. I sat on the bench wondering what I was suppose to do. I walked to the baggage pick up and grabbed my bag. I turned around and saw a man standing with a sign that said Ms Kate Patrick.
"Hi, I'm Kate." I was leaning over because my bag was so heavy
"Welcome to LA let me take your bags."
"Oh it's okay I can carry them." I was lying but I didn't want to be rude
"It's my pleasure." He took them anyway and walked me to a limo. A LIMO! I have never been in one. I was so excited.
"Well here is where you will be staying, your room is already set up just give the baggage man at the front this note and you will have to show him your drivers license just so he knows it is you."
The driver took my bags to the front and said goodbye.
"Thank you so much!" I turned around and a short well dressed man said a very high pitched hello that made me jump.
"Sorry to startle you Ms Let me take you to your room."
The hotel was very nice, I unpacked and lounged on the bed. I turned on the TV to see if the game was on but no luck. It was about 10:30 when Nick called me
"Did you make it okay, everything is fine?"
"Yes of course, this is so sweet, you didn't have to do all this."
"Babe of course I did, your worth it, we are leaving Anaheim right now so I will be there in like 45 minutes to an hour is that okay?"
"Oh I forgot you were there first, yeah that's fine. Did you guys win they didn't have the game on here."
"Yeah! we kicked their ass! I had a goal in the first period. It was a good game."
"Good job baby!!"
"Thanks. How about you order yourself some room service and I will call you when I'm there?"
"Okay, be safe."
"I will, see you soon." I ate dinner and read some of the book I had brought with me. I was anxious to see Nick. It was about 11:45 when a knock came at my door. I ran to open it and before I knew it i was up in the air.
"Hey you! I missed you even though it's only been a day." I wrapped my legs around him and gave him a kiss.
"Not even, are you tired?" he carried me to the bed and laid me down then laid next to me.
"Yeah a little bit but I'm excited to see you."
"Here sit up." I sat behind him and kissed him on the neck and started to rub his shoulders. He turned back around and pushed my hair behind my ears and kissed me.
"When do you want to talk?"
"Now is fine with me if you don't mind being up late."
"Not at all."
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Chapter 15
"Kate are you okay, you sound really upset?" I didn't want to tell him but I had to.
"I haven't been completely honest with you." I grabbed a tissue and blew my nose
"Please don't cry, did you talk to Brian after I left?"
"Yeah I did after you guys talked I called him to ask him what you guys talked about. He wants to tell you things about me that I should tell you first, not him." It was silent for about a minute and it was killing me, I just wanted him to say something.
"What is it that you need to tell me." He sounded concerned but I knew he was very curious
"Some things about my past I'm not proud of, I just don't want you to think of me differently."
"Kate I want you to know I care about you very much, and I do want you to be honest with me but I can't force you, I want you to be comfortable enough to tell me and don't feel obligated." At this point I felt like I could really trust him.
"Well when I was younger I."
"Kate wait.... I don't want you to tell me over the phone, I want to be with you, sitting with you so I can at least comfort you if you get upset." for some reason I felt like he didn't care, but I knew he was just saying this because he really did want to be there for me, I was never used to this, the only person I could ever compare him to was Brian and he was nothing like him.
"I am so sorry we have a team practice, I don't want to leave you upset so if you need me call me back I will stop what I'm doing and answer it, I care about you so much and want to protect you."
"Okay, good luck with your game I will be watching and we can talk about this when you get back."
"alright I will call you when the practice is over, bye sweetheart."
"Bye."
I hung up and laid down on my bed. I fell asleep for about an hour until Josh came into my room and sat on my bed.
"Kat, can I talk to you for a second?" I stretched and turned over.
"What's up?" He looked very upset and I sat up and looked at him. "What's wrong?"
"I saw Brian here the other night..... I don't think he should be here, I called your mom."
"Josh!"
"Kat just listen please." He rubbed my head like a mother would do to her kid "He is not welcome here and your mom doesn't want you talking to him, he is bad news."
"I did talk to him today."
"What?! why?" He seemed very agitated.
"He talked to Nick and he wants to tell him everything, his motive is pretty much to break us up." He smiled a little and it put me more at ease.
"I know how Nick feels about you, your past is your past, it doesn't define who you are today and I'm sure he will understand that."
"How can you be sure of that, yeah it's in the past but it still bothers me today and I still think about it, if I tell him how will I know if he will still feel the same about me." My head was down and Josh pushed my chin up and looked at me with a very sincere way.
"I know you will never forget, and every time you see your brother and his family you are always going to remember but you are a stronger person know and if he cannot see that, than I'm sorry Kat but he is not worth it."
"I know, thank you so much."
"Whatever you need Kat, I love you and your blood, oh and if I see Brian but I'm sorry I'm going to shoot him with my bee bee gun and squirt him with water." I laughed and rolled back over to go to sleep. My phone began to ring an hour later.
"Hey Nick."
"I have a great idea, start packing!"
"I haven't been completely honest with you." I grabbed a tissue and blew my nose
"Please don't cry, did you talk to Brian after I left?"
"Yeah I did after you guys talked I called him to ask him what you guys talked about. He wants to tell you things about me that I should tell you first, not him." It was silent for about a minute and it was killing me, I just wanted him to say something.
"What is it that you need to tell me." He sounded concerned but I knew he was very curious
"Some things about my past I'm not proud of, I just don't want you to think of me differently."
"Kate I want you to know I care about you very much, and I do want you to be honest with me but I can't force you, I want you to be comfortable enough to tell me and don't feel obligated." At this point I felt like I could really trust him.
"Well when I was younger I."
"Kate wait.... I don't want you to tell me over the phone, I want to be with you, sitting with you so I can at least comfort you if you get upset." for some reason I felt like he didn't care, but I knew he was just saying this because he really did want to be there for me, I was never used to this, the only person I could ever compare him to was Brian and he was nothing like him.
"I am so sorry we have a team practice, I don't want to leave you upset so if you need me call me back I will stop what I'm doing and answer it, I care about you so much and want to protect you."
"Okay, good luck with your game I will be watching and we can talk about this when you get back."
"alright I will call you when the practice is over, bye sweetheart."
"Bye."
I hung up and laid down on my bed. I fell asleep for about an hour until Josh came into my room and sat on my bed.
"Kat, can I talk to you for a second?" I stretched and turned over.
"What's up?" He looked very upset and I sat up and looked at him. "What's wrong?"
"I saw Brian here the other night..... I don't think he should be here, I called your mom."
"Josh!"
"Kat just listen please." He rubbed my head like a mother would do to her kid "He is not welcome here and your mom doesn't want you talking to him, he is bad news."
"I did talk to him today."
"What?! why?" He seemed very agitated.
"He talked to Nick and he wants to tell him everything, his motive is pretty much to break us up." He smiled a little and it put me more at ease.
"I know how Nick feels about you, your past is your past, it doesn't define who you are today and I'm sure he will understand that."
"How can you be sure of that, yeah it's in the past but it still bothers me today and I still think about it, if I tell him how will I know if he will still feel the same about me." My head was down and Josh pushed my chin up and looked at me with a very sincere way.
"I know you will never forget, and every time you see your brother and his family you are always going to remember but you are a stronger person know and if he cannot see that, than I'm sorry Kat but he is not worth it."
"I know, thank you so much."
"Whatever you need Kat, I love you and your blood, oh and if I see Brian but I'm sorry I'm going to shoot him with my bee bee gun and squirt him with water." I laughed and rolled back over to go to sleep. My phone began to ring an hour later.
"Hey Nick."
"I have a great idea, start packing!"
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Chapter 14
"I'm going to miss you giving me hell for taking too long in the shower." He wrapped me so tight in his arms. I never wanted him to let me go.
"Your a guy you shouldn't take and hour in the shower." I looked up at him and gave him a soft kiss.
"Puppy love is so sappy, get a room young lovers!" Ovechkin shouted over from the door. Nick kissed me back while giving him the finger I hit his chest.
"Be nice he is just playing."
"Me too." He continued to give him the finger. He pulled away and held my hands
"Bye baby, I will call you when I get there." I pulled him in for one last kiss and watch him until he went inside.
I walked to the car, the whole time I was wondering what Brian and Nick talked about, it was driving me crazy. I drove for home and decided to call Brian.
"What's up Chicky, you drop Nick off and you call me, interesting." I almost hung up.
"It's not like that, I wanted to know what you and him talked about."
"I'm not telling you." He said in a joking matter.
"Please Brian, he is really important to me and makes me happy, does that even matter to you?"
"Maybe, but I don't think you have been honest with him." When he said that I knew exactly what he was referring to.
"You wouldn't tell him."
"I was thinking about it."
"Why do you get to decide that." I felt my voice getting louder. "It is my choice if and when to tell him not you!"
"I'm just as much apart of this as you!"
"No you aren't, this is not your relationship it is mine, I can easily ruin what you and Sarah have with this too, keep your mouth shut!"
"Well if you talk to me like that I surely won't consider your feelings."
"I'm picking you up, we need to talk, where are you?"
"I dunno Kate, don't really feel like hanging out right now." I could tell he found this as a big joke
"Brian this is not funny! You don't care about me one bit, you never even cared if I was happy, for once can you be an adult and talk to me about this!" He sighed and didn't say anything "Please....."
"Fine, I'm at the Best Western."
I drove faster then I did when I dropped Nick off. I pulled up to the Front and Brian was sitting on the bench with his hood up. He got in and didn't say one word.
"Where do you want to go?" He turned and looked at me
"I don't care, I will pull over here and talk."
"Fine by me."
I pulled over and took off my seat belt. I looked at him but he wouldn't look at me. We sat for about 5 minutes before we said anything.
"He should know Kate." He sat with his hood up and hands in his pocket. Still not looking at me.
"Why this has nothing to do with him, it's my business and I plan to keep it that way."
He finally sat up and looked at me
"I thought you said that this was important to you."
"It is."
"Then tell him." I wanted to punch him so hard right in his face.
"Why are you so concerned about this! you don't even like him." He pulled his hood down and turned towards me.
"Kate, I don't think it's any secret, I'm in love with you, we could work this out, I could work here and everything could be like it used to."
"Brian, please don't start this."
Before I knew it Brian grabbed my face and kissed me. I quickly pulled away, stunned that he would just do that.
"Brian! you can't just do that!" I started the car and put my seat belt on "Tell him whatever you want, break us up I don't give a shit but I'm sorry I'm over you."
I drove him back to his hotel. The car ride was silent. He looked at me one last time before he got out of the car.
"You just made the biggest mistake of your life." He slammed the door and I sped off.
I waited for Nicks call all day. Finally around 3 my phone went off
"Hey beautiful we made it that flight made me so tired." It was so nice to hear his voice
"Nick.." My voice started to crack, I couldn't believe I was crying again! "I need to tell you something."
"Your a guy you shouldn't take and hour in the shower." I looked up at him and gave him a soft kiss.
"Puppy love is so sappy, get a room young lovers!" Ovechkin shouted over from the door. Nick kissed me back while giving him the finger I hit his chest.
"Be nice he is just playing."
"Me too." He continued to give him the finger. He pulled away and held my hands
"Bye baby, I will call you when I get there." I pulled him in for one last kiss and watch him until he went inside.
I walked to the car, the whole time I was wondering what Brian and Nick talked about, it was driving me crazy. I drove for home and decided to call Brian.
"What's up Chicky, you drop Nick off and you call me, interesting." I almost hung up.
"It's not like that, I wanted to know what you and him talked about."
"I'm not telling you." He said in a joking matter.
"Please Brian, he is really important to me and makes me happy, does that even matter to you?"
"Maybe, but I don't think you have been honest with him." When he said that I knew exactly what he was referring to.
"You wouldn't tell him."
"I was thinking about it."
"Why do you get to decide that." I felt my voice getting louder. "It is my choice if and when to tell him not you!"
"I'm just as much apart of this as you!"
"No you aren't, this is not your relationship it is mine, I can easily ruin what you and Sarah have with this too, keep your mouth shut!"
"Well if you talk to me like that I surely won't consider your feelings."
"I'm picking you up, we need to talk, where are you?"
"I dunno Kate, don't really feel like hanging out right now." I could tell he found this as a big joke
"Brian this is not funny! You don't care about me one bit, you never even cared if I was happy, for once can you be an adult and talk to me about this!" He sighed and didn't say anything "Please....."
"Fine, I'm at the Best Western."
I drove faster then I did when I dropped Nick off. I pulled up to the Front and Brian was sitting on the bench with his hood up. He got in and didn't say one word.
"Where do you want to go?" He turned and looked at me
"I don't care, I will pull over here and talk."
"Fine by me."
I pulled over and took off my seat belt. I looked at him but he wouldn't look at me. We sat for about 5 minutes before we said anything.
"He should know Kate." He sat with his hood up and hands in his pocket. Still not looking at me.
"Why this has nothing to do with him, it's my business and I plan to keep it that way."
He finally sat up and looked at me
"I thought you said that this was important to you."
"It is."
"Then tell him." I wanted to punch him so hard right in his face.
"Why are you so concerned about this! you don't even like him." He pulled his hood down and turned towards me.
"Kate, I don't think it's any secret, I'm in love with you, we could work this out, I could work here and everything could be like it used to."
"Brian, please don't start this."
Before I knew it Brian grabbed my face and kissed me. I quickly pulled away, stunned that he would just do that.
"Brian! you can't just do that!" I started the car and put my seat belt on "Tell him whatever you want, break us up I don't give a shit but I'm sorry I'm over you."
I drove him back to his hotel. The car ride was silent. He looked at me one last time before he got out of the car.
"You just made the biggest mistake of your life." He slammed the door and I sped off.
I waited for Nicks call all day. Finally around 3 my phone went off
"Hey beautiful we made it that flight made me so tired." It was so nice to hear his voice
"Nick.." My voice started to crack, I couldn't believe I was crying again! "I need to tell you something."
Monday, December 1, 2008
Chapter 13
"You know how bad that hurts for a guy! I think you ripped my boxers!" I was laying on the bed laughing so hard.
"I'm going to give you a wedgie see how you like it!" He grabbed me but couldn't give me one. "I'm guessing you are not wearing any underwear at the current moment." I was still laughing
"No, It was laundry day I forgot to leave out an extra."
"Its ok don't explain I could get used to this." I punch him in the arm then stood up on the bed and fell into his arms. He laid me back down on the bed and started to kiss me.
"Don't we need to leave it is 8:00."
"Give me 5 minutes I'm leaving for a week remember." We got up after about 10 minutes and rushed out of the door. I was going about 70 miles per hour to make sure he wasn't late.
"You can slow down." he was grabbing the door handle very tight. "I can be a few minutes late, you are driving really fast." I looked at him and spoke in a baby voice.
"Awww is someone scared?"
"No not really, well maybe, the speed limit is 50."
"I'm sorry I will slow it down, I can't really help it I get it from my dad."
"Yeah about that, when am I going to meet your family, you talk about them all the time."
"How about this, I know you are going on a road trip a couple weeks from now and you play the Avs, how about I go with you and then we can have dinner or something with my parents."
He held my hand and smiled at me.
"Sounds like a good Idea." My phone began to ring but I could not grab it because I was driving so fast.
"Nick can you grab my phone out of my pocket its going off." He leaned over to grab it. "No babe other side."
"I won't be able to get that your seat belt is in the way." After a few tries he finally got it. "Wow what a surprise..." He had a annoyed look on his face.
"Who is it?" He pointed the phone towards me. "Brain....well you can't blame him I haven't talked to him since I stormed past him."
"You going to answer it?" The phone stopped ringing
"Well now I'm not, I have to call him to explain whats going on." He handed me the phone, I couldn't tell if he was mad about it or not.
"Brian... hey sorry I missed your call I'm driving Nick to the airport." Nick sat there still and quiet.
"It's okay, I just wanted to make sure everything was alright you were crying, I have never seen you cry."
"Yeah we worked everything out but I gotta go I'm driving, really fast too and I can't really concentrate on the phone right now." Nick shifted and looked at me.
"Can I talk to him?"
"What?!"
"Can I talk to him?"
"Are you serious, well I guess yeah hold on." I was a little shocked and handed Nick the phone.
"What's up." Nick's voice was very calm.
"Um hello, what's this all about."
"I just want to make sure Kate is ok with this and to know how you feel about her, especially since I will be gone a week and your out here visiting."
"Dude everything is cool don't worry about it."
"Alright if you say so, but if you hurt her, I'm not going to be very nice about it."
"Nick give me that!" I took the phone very quickly "Bye Brian." I hung up the phone and looked at Nick
"Why. Why did you feel the need to do that."
"I don't trust him, you already know that. I'm just looking out for you that's what boyfriends do, it comes with the job." Even though I was a little upset about the situation it felt nice to have a protective boyfriend that wasn't too over the top. My phone began to ring again.
"It's Brian again, don't say anything Nick please." He took the phone and answered it himself
"What now?" Nick's voice was not so calm this time.
"I think me and you need to meet up and talk when you get back."
"Are you crazy." I was so curious to what they were talking about.
"There are some things about Kate you should hear and I know she has not told you, for your own good." Nick was silent and the last thing he said was when I get back and hung up the phone.
"What did he say, he didn't want to talk to me?" He kissed me on the cheek
"No everything is ok, are we almost there?"
"Yup it's right there."
"I'm going to give you a wedgie see how you like it!" He grabbed me but couldn't give me one. "I'm guessing you are not wearing any underwear at the current moment." I was still laughing
"No, It was laundry day I forgot to leave out an extra."
"Its ok don't explain I could get used to this." I punch him in the arm then stood up on the bed and fell into his arms. He laid me back down on the bed and started to kiss me.
"Don't we need to leave it is 8:00."
"Give me 5 minutes I'm leaving for a week remember." We got up after about 10 minutes and rushed out of the door. I was going about 70 miles per hour to make sure he wasn't late.
"You can slow down." he was grabbing the door handle very tight. "I can be a few minutes late, you are driving really fast." I looked at him and spoke in a baby voice.
"Awww is someone scared?"
"No not really, well maybe, the speed limit is 50."
"I'm sorry I will slow it down, I can't really help it I get it from my dad."
"Yeah about that, when am I going to meet your family, you talk about them all the time."
"How about this, I know you are going on a road trip a couple weeks from now and you play the Avs, how about I go with you and then we can have dinner or something with my parents."
He held my hand and smiled at me.
"Sounds like a good Idea." My phone began to ring but I could not grab it because I was driving so fast.
"Nick can you grab my phone out of my pocket its going off." He leaned over to grab it. "No babe other side."
"I won't be able to get that your seat belt is in the way." After a few tries he finally got it. "Wow what a surprise..." He had a annoyed look on his face.
"Who is it?" He pointed the phone towards me. "Brain....well you can't blame him I haven't talked to him since I stormed past him."
"You going to answer it?" The phone stopped ringing
"Well now I'm not, I have to call him to explain whats going on." He handed me the phone, I couldn't tell if he was mad about it or not.
"Brian... hey sorry I missed your call I'm driving Nick to the airport." Nick sat there still and quiet.
"It's okay, I just wanted to make sure everything was alright you were crying, I have never seen you cry."
"Yeah we worked everything out but I gotta go I'm driving, really fast too and I can't really concentrate on the phone right now." Nick shifted and looked at me.
"Can I talk to him?"
"What?!"
"Can I talk to him?"
"Are you serious, well I guess yeah hold on." I was a little shocked and handed Nick the phone.
"What's up." Nick's voice was very calm.
"Um hello, what's this all about."
"I just want to make sure Kate is ok with this and to know how you feel about her, especially since I will be gone a week and your out here visiting."
"Dude everything is cool don't worry about it."
"Alright if you say so, but if you hurt her, I'm not going to be very nice about it."
"Nick give me that!" I took the phone very quickly "Bye Brian." I hung up the phone and looked at Nick
"Why. Why did you feel the need to do that."
"I don't trust him, you already know that. I'm just looking out for you that's what boyfriends do, it comes with the job." Even though I was a little upset about the situation it felt nice to have a protective boyfriend that wasn't too over the top. My phone began to ring again.
"It's Brian again, don't say anything Nick please." He took the phone and answered it himself
"What now?" Nick's voice was not so calm this time.
"I think me and you need to meet up and talk when you get back."
"Are you crazy." I was so curious to what they were talking about.
"There are some things about Kate you should hear and I know she has not told you, for your own good." Nick was silent and the last thing he said was when I get back and hung up the phone.
"What did he say, he didn't want to talk to me?" He kissed me on the cheek
"No everything is ok, are we almost there?"
"Yup it's right there."
Chapter 12
"Please let me in.... the door man is gone, please just buzz me in all I need to do is talk to you, just give me five minutes and I will leave." All I wanted to hear was that buzz noise, but I didn't hear it. My phone began to ring and it was Nick.
"I called you like and Hour and a half ago, I need to go to sleep."
"Give me five minutes, that's all I'm asking for. If things don't change I will leave and you won't hear from me again." I heard the noise I was longing for and opened the door and hastily walked to his apartment. He opened the door but his face was not necessarily welcoming.
"I'm sorry...." he didn't move, he didn't even let me inside. "I don't know what I should say to you to forgive me, all I can say is that Brian means nothing to me as a boyfriend, but as my best friend I care for him and that's never going to change." He finally let me inside and he sat down.
"I feel like you love him, I feel like I'm a rebound." He cracked his knuckles and stared at the t.v.
"That is so far from the truth, you need to trust me, even if you don't trust him I want you to Know that I would never do anything to hurt you." He sighed but didn't even glance my way.
"What would happen if he said Kate I'm moving here we should hang out." From the moment I met Nick I never wanted to lie to him, I felt like it would be best to be completely honest.
"I would hang out with him of course."
"You should leave." He got up very quickly but before he could head to his room I grabbed his arm.
"Brian was my best friend, I grew up with him, I am never going to stop caring about him, If he ever asked me to be his girlfriend again I would say no, that was the biggest mistake I have even made. But please believe me when I say I'm over him!" I started to cry even harder that when I talked my voice would crack.
"I honestly don't know what to feel right now, I'm afraid I'm going to lose you, and he is going to be the reason why, I wouldn't be able to handle that." Even though I felt like he hated me at that moment he pulled up his sleeves and wiped the tears from my face. "Please don't cry, I don't want to hurt you, I just want the truth."
I felt Like I couldn't breath but I tried to get the words out as best as I could.
"Nick, I'm falling hard for you, you make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world, Brian never made me feel like that. He was an asshole, but to be honest as a friend he was awesome and I miss that. If you were to ask me to forget Brian for you, I don't know if I would be able to do that, I will never ever be his girlfriend, ever, but if he were to ask me to stop seeing you, I wouldn't be able to do that either, all I want is to keep him as a friend and to keep you too, as my boyfriend." He still had his hands on my face, he didn't say one word
"Please don't leave me." The tears kept falling. He wiped my face one last time then he turned around and walked to his room. I couldn't stop crying, I walked to the door and realized this relationship was done and there was nothing I could do.
"Wait." I turned around to see Nick standing still with a black box in his hand. "I got this for you." I didn't know what to do, should I accept or say i didn't want it?
"Nick, all I want is you, I don't need any gifts." He slowly walked over and opened the box. It was a diamond necklace. It was so beautiful.
"Nick I cant accept thi..."
"Can I put it on for you?" He grabbed my hips and turned me around and proceeded to put the necklace on. "Kate, I picked this up after I left your house..... I want you to know that you have some kind of hold over me, no girl has ever made me go this crazy , I just want to know that you feel the same about me." I turned around so fast and hugged him.
"I do I do! and I want you to trust me because Brian means nothing to me when It comes to a relationship." He looked at me and I couldn't look away. He meant so much to me.
"Can you stay tonight, we can talk everything out?" He did not let go of my hug.
"I don't want to keep you up, you have to leave so early tomorrow."
"We are going all the way to California, I can sleep on the plane." He smiled, and I smiled back and gave him a kiss.
"Will you take me to the airport, a lot of the guys are having their wives and girls take them." I grabbed his shirt and gave him another kiss
"Of course, how can I say no to such a cute guy?!" he laughed and took me too his room.
It was about 3:00 in the morning when we both laid down. I put my head on his chest and we quickly fell asleep.
"I called you like and Hour and a half ago, I need to go to sleep."
"Give me five minutes, that's all I'm asking for. If things don't change I will leave and you won't hear from me again." I heard the noise I was longing for and opened the door and hastily walked to his apartment. He opened the door but his face was not necessarily welcoming.
"I'm sorry...." he didn't move, he didn't even let me inside. "I don't know what I should say to you to forgive me, all I can say is that Brian means nothing to me as a boyfriend, but as my best friend I care for him and that's never going to change." He finally let me inside and he sat down.
"I feel like you love him, I feel like I'm a rebound." He cracked his knuckles and stared at the t.v.
"That is so far from the truth, you need to trust me, even if you don't trust him I want you to Know that I would never do anything to hurt you." He sighed but didn't even glance my way.
"What would happen if he said Kate I'm moving here we should hang out." From the moment I met Nick I never wanted to lie to him, I felt like it would be best to be completely honest.
"I would hang out with him of course."
"You should leave." He got up very quickly but before he could head to his room I grabbed his arm.
"Brian was my best friend, I grew up with him, I am never going to stop caring about him, If he ever asked me to be his girlfriend again I would say no, that was the biggest mistake I have even made. But please believe me when I say I'm over him!" I started to cry even harder that when I talked my voice would crack.
"I honestly don't know what to feel right now, I'm afraid I'm going to lose you, and he is going to be the reason why, I wouldn't be able to handle that." Even though I felt like he hated me at that moment he pulled up his sleeves and wiped the tears from my face. "Please don't cry, I don't want to hurt you, I just want the truth."
I felt Like I couldn't breath but I tried to get the words out as best as I could.
"Nick, I'm falling hard for you, you make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world, Brian never made me feel like that. He was an asshole, but to be honest as a friend he was awesome and I miss that. If you were to ask me to forget Brian for you, I don't know if I would be able to do that, I will never ever be his girlfriend, ever, but if he were to ask me to stop seeing you, I wouldn't be able to do that either, all I want is to keep him as a friend and to keep you too, as my boyfriend." He still had his hands on my face, he didn't say one word
"Please don't leave me." The tears kept falling. He wiped my face one last time then he turned around and walked to his room. I couldn't stop crying, I walked to the door and realized this relationship was done and there was nothing I could do.
"Wait." I turned around to see Nick standing still with a black box in his hand. "I got this for you." I didn't know what to do, should I accept or say i didn't want it?
"Nick, all I want is you, I don't need any gifts." He slowly walked over and opened the box. It was a diamond necklace. It was so beautiful.
"Nick I cant accept thi..."
"Can I put it on for you?" He grabbed my hips and turned me around and proceeded to put the necklace on. "Kate, I picked this up after I left your house..... I want you to know that you have some kind of hold over me, no girl has ever made me go this crazy , I just want to know that you feel the same about me." I turned around so fast and hugged him.
"I do I do! and I want you to trust me because Brian means nothing to me when It comes to a relationship." He looked at me and I couldn't look away. He meant so much to me.
"Can you stay tonight, we can talk everything out?" He did not let go of my hug.
"I don't want to keep you up, you have to leave so early tomorrow."
"We are going all the way to California, I can sleep on the plane." He smiled, and I smiled back and gave him a kiss.
"Will you take me to the airport, a lot of the guys are having their wives and girls take them." I grabbed his shirt and gave him another kiss
"Of course, how can I say no to such a cute guy?!" he laughed and took me too his room.
It was about 3:00 in the morning when we both laid down. I put my head on his chest and we quickly fell asleep.
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