Chapter 24

"Good morning." Riley met me in the hall way as I dragged myself to the bathroom.

"Morning" I turned the water on for the shower and leaned against the door frame.

"Pick you head up." Riley pushed my chin up.

"If I see him again I don't know what I will do. He has no right being out of prison, after what he did to me."

"Don't let this bring you down, you have come so far."

"It's not right, I was a kid, a fucking kid and he stole that and I can NEVER get my teen years back he practically took my life and now he is back around, how can I trust that a restraining order will stop both of them, how can I trust the fucking justice system after they gave him a year in jail."

"I don't Know what to say to you."

"Yeah no one does, nobody has been able to fucking answer me." I shut the door and got in the shower. I was frustrated, scared and tired. I took it out on Riley and I felt bad. I did not know how to handle this. Brian was one thing but both of them?! I got out and did my hair. I walked downstairs and saw Riley sitting at the kitchen table with his head down. I sat next to him.

"I'm sorry, it's not your fault, I'm just finally happy for once in a long time and my past comes back to bite me in the ass." He looked up at me, his eyes were red. "Riley don't." I felt my eyes watering up.

"You deserve so much more than this, your too young and sometimes I feel like it's my fault, I should have been there." Every time me and Riley talked about this he felt like Justin raping me was his fault. He was suppose to go to the party with me but his girlfriend at the time didn't want to go, so I went to Brian's birthday party alone. He blames himself.

"Riley as much as you think it's your fault it's not. What would you have followed me upstairs that night?"

"Yeah I would have, I always thought Justin was bad news, he always looked at you, I wouldn't have let him take you anywhere." I wiped my tears with my sleeve.

"Riley, I will never blame you." I got up and kissed his cheek, he got up and hugged me, we were both crying. I have never felt so close to him. "Please don't ever think it's your fault." He laughed and wiped his eyes.

"Want some breakfast?" I smiled

"Yeah sure. Egg sandwich?! Just like mom makes. you know how I like it."

"How can I forget, especially since you put ketchup on it."

"Okay, good. I will be back I'm going to make a phone call."

"Alright."

I walked upstairs and sat on my bed. I promised everyone I wouldn't talk to Brian but I wanted to Know if he was talking to his brother. If he wasn't then maybe it wasn't Justin outside.

"Hello?" He answered.

"Brian?" It sounded like him, but a little different.

"Hey sweetheart it is so nice to talk to you, I haven't talked to you in a while. Still as sexy as you were when you were 14?" My heart dropped. I couldn't speak. "Aw you not going to talk to me?"

"You are a sick human being, stay away from me and my family." Justin started to say something but I hung up the phone before I could hear what he said. I just laid in my bed looking up at the ceiling wondering how I was going to explain all this to Nick.

"Hey Babe." Nick sounded cheerful

"Hi." I wasn't so cheerful.

"What's wrong."


"Remember when I told you about Brian's brother Justin?"

"Yeah."

"Well my brother Riley thinks he saw him outside of Josh's house."

"Are you serious? What are you going to do?"


"I don't Know, I didn't know if it was him or not so I called Brian and...." He cut me off.

"You called Brian?!" Nick sounded upset. "What the fuck is wrong with you?!"

"Nick!" When he said that he sounded just like Brian.

"I'm sorry Kate but seriously, he is putting you through hell and you call him! That does not sound so smart to me, leave it alone!"

"If you were in my shoes you would do the same thing!" I was getting very pissed off.

"How do you know that! I can't believe you called him. That has got to be the stupidest thing you have done, you need to stop talking to him, your still in love with him aren't you?!." I don't think I have ever been this mad at him, he didn't understand where I was coming from.

"Why don't you trust me! you never have and I can't believe after everything I told you you're getting pissed off about this. You have no fucking clue what I'm going through don't judge me! I called Brian to see if he was talking to his brother and Justin answered. That's all I called for. I'm petrified right now and all you have to fucking say to me is that I still love Brian! I think something is wrong with you!" I was going to hang up but I wanted to hear what he had to say.

"I don't think this is working, this just isn't right." I was shocked, but to mad at him to care.

"Fine I don't even care because your heartless."

"Fine." I threw my phone at my dresser picked it up and put the battery back inside and went down stairs. I was furious.

"What was all that yelling about?" Riley sat the sandwich in front of me. I pushed it away.

"I'm not hungry." He pushed it back towards me

"You haven't eaten, and who did you just call, why are you so pissed off?"

"I called Brian, and then Nick." Riley rolled his eyes, I got up to go upstairs because I didn't want to deal with him getting mad at me too.

"Sit down, Now why did you call Brian."

"Do you really want to know why or is it just to make me sit down." I was still standing

"Tell me." He sat down and waited for me.

"Well." I took a bite out of my sandwich. "I wanted to know if he was talking to Justin, because if he wasn't then maybe it wasn't Justin outside."

"Okay, I understand that." I was happy that someone understood why I called him.

"Then I called Nick to tell him and he flipped out, turned into a total dick, I yelled back at him and then he broke up with me." Nick breaking up with me just hit me when I told Riley.

"Maybe he is just scared too." Riley crossed his arms.

"No, because he still thinks I love Brian."

"Do you?"

"NO! why do people still think I love him!" Riley put his hand up.

"Whoa whoa whoa, I was just asking."

"Yeah, sorry." My phone started to ring.

"Who is it?" Riley leaned over to look.

"It's Nick." I stared at my phone.

"You gonna answer it?"

"Nope." I put it back in my pocket and continued to eat my breakfast.